Back in middle school I had a teacher who showed us the Civil War movie 'Glory' and before it, warned us all not to laugh or whatnot because it's a serious story. During a battle/dying scene I either giggled or laughed by accident, and the teacher called me out for it to the entire class. Later at our end-of-year school trip (I think it may have closely followed behind the Glory viewing), and I happened to sit in the bus seat right behind this same teacher. He saw me, turned to the teacher next to him and pointed me out as the insensitive girl who laughed during the Glory movie. I don't remember the other teacher's reaction or exactly how he was told about me, but the first teacher was NOT shy about telling another adult about my laughing incident in a normal voice right in front of me.
Years and years later as fully grown adult, the memory still mortifies me. I have a vague recollection of having to talk to this teacher briefly afterwards as part of a is-everyone-here list, and I don't think he gave any particular reaction, but a tiny part of me wants to cry each time I remember the initial incident. Another part of me thinks I'm being overly sensitive, another part is just feeling confused, and another part of me is angry. Was it really a terrible mistake to laugh during a history-based but still FICTIONAL movie where no matter how good the acting was, EVERYTHING WAS STILL FAKE? Plus I do clearly remember that I didn't go full blown 'HA HA HA' and it was an accidental sound that I made. Was it bad enough to be publicly embarrassed and then again in front of an adult? Why did it take me almost two decades to come up with a reaction/comeback? I remember just ducking my head in silence back then. Why can't I stop thinking about this on occasion? The past is the past. There's nothing I can do.
Still, I really wish I could give this guy karma, but there's no such thing as a time machine and I seriously doubt it'd have any effect, because he's clearly the type with a skin so thick, he'll somehow make you end up feeling like the idiot instead. I'd say in such a case that scenario is guaranteed since even on a good day words always avoid me.
Years and years later as fully grown adult, the memory still mortifies me. I have a vague recollection of having to talk to this teacher briefly afterwards as part of a is-everyone-here list, and I don't think he gave any particular reaction, but a tiny part of me wants to cry each time I remember the initial incident. Another part of me thinks I'm being overly sensitive, another part is just feeling confused, and another part of me is angry. Was it really a terrible mistake to laugh during a history-based but still FICTIONAL movie where no matter how good the acting was, EVERYTHING WAS STILL FAKE? Plus I do clearly remember that I didn't go full blown 'HA HA HA' and it was an accidental sound that I made. Was it bad enough to be publicly embarrassed and then again in front of an adult? Why did it take me almost two decades to come up with a reaction/comeback? I remember just ducking my head in silence back then. Why can't I stop thinking about this on occasion? The past is the past. There's nothing I can do.
Still, I really wish I could give this guy karma, but there's no such thing as a time machine and I seriously doubt it'd have any effect, because he's clearly the type with a skin so thick, he'll somehow make you end up feeling like the idiot instead. I'd say in such a case that scenario is guaranteed since even on a good day words always avoid me.