Depression and me

[BKenneth]

Most of my life I have had depression. Only in the past 10 years have I tried to combat it. I attempted suicide in 2005. I used to ask, why me?! I never know when it's going to "flair" up but when it does, life seems almost impossible. The crazy part is that I am, generally speaking, a funny and outgoing type of guy. When it hits me, I feel like I have no control over it and I cannot get out of bed. Over the years, I have struggled with keeping employment because sometimes, I just need a break!! Today is one of those days. I have been overwhelmed with work and life and college and I just want to sit down and take a break, but here I sit at school waiting for class to begin. Someone once told me that it gets better and maybe it has.....it's just hard to see that when I feel so awful. Any advice?!
(before it is said, yes, I take medication)

 

[XmasCarol52]

Most of my life I have had depression. Only in the past 10 years have I tried to combat it. I attempted suicide in 2005. I used to ask, why me?! I never know when it's going to "flair" up but when it does, life seems almost impossible. The crazy part is that I am, generally speaking, a funny and outgoing type of guy. When it hits me, I feel like I have no control over it and I cannot get out of bed. Over the years, I have struggled with keeping employment because sometimes, I just need a break!! Today is one of those days. I have been overwhelmed with work and life and college and I just want to sit down and take a break, but here I sit at school waiting for class to begin. Someone once told me that it gets better and maybe it has.....it's just hard to see that when I feel so awful. Any advice?!
(before it is said, yes, I take medication)

Welcome to the family.I have bipolar and depression so I know how you feel.I am still waiting for it to get better,some days all I can do is lay down.I try to think of things that make me happy but it just doesnt last to long.Today I feel like I want to kill myself but I wont because I am to darn afraid to die.You have come to the right place.Youwill love it here.

 

[Rinka]

Most of my life I have had depression. Only in the past 10 years have I tried to combat it. I attempted suicide in 2005. I used to ask, why me?! I never know when it's going to "flair" up but when it does, life seems almost impossible. The crazy part is that I am, generally speaking, a funny and outgoing type of guy. When it hits me, I feel like I have no control over it and I cannot get out of bed. Over the years, I have struggled with keeping employment because sometimes, I just need a break!! Today is one of those days. I have been overwhelmed with work and life and college and I just want to sit down and take a break, but here I sit at school waiting for class to begin. Someone once told me that it gets better and maybe it has.....it's just hard to see that when I feel so awful. Any advice?!
(before it is said, yes, I take medication)

Hi @BKenneth .
From what I can read about you, you seem to be very busy and stressed.
Work and college is bringing everyone down without a break.
It might sound a bit weird, but have you thought about taking an actual long break and go traveling?
A lot of my mates went to Australia to travel and work during their harvest season.
They basically financed themselves and their travels with works on farms.
I sometimes have the feeling that when we get stuck in one place we become depressed and loose spirit.
It might be worth a thought.

 

[janemariesayed]

Do you have any days off in a week? Perhaps try to do something completely different on your days off. Take yourself camping or do something different. The change in scenery will make you feel like you are having a rest. Most importantly it does sound like your work is stressing you out which is not good.