Currently Going through a bad spell

[AnxiousBlue]

I have had anxiety for as long as I can remember. The odd thing about my anxiety is that it's not necessarily constant. It ebbs and flows throughout the course of my life it seems. Sometimes I can go a year without having a major outbreak, other times it seems that a second cannot pass during the day that I am not weighted down by it. I recently was traveling from overseas back to the united states. The plane ride had several logs but the longest was over the pacific for about 9 hours. About two hours into the flight, seemingly out of nowhere, I went into a full on panic attack. Talk about scary. . . a panic attack at 30,000 feet over the pacific ocean knowing that this plane was not landing any time soon. I jumped up and went to the gally where the flight attendants and explained to them that I was having a panic attack and needed them to talk me out of it. A lot of times I can push through my panic attacks if someone is talking to me and calming down. They did a great job and I made it through the flight. My next flight (which was my final leg) was 4 hours long. Coming off the incident on the pacific flight, I got to scared to get on my last plane and ended up missing my flight. It's a terrible feeling to know that you are too scared to get on a plane and subsequently being stuck unable to get home. I ended up going to the local ER and just explained to a Doctor there that I had severe anxiety and I need SOMETHING to get me through the flight. He gave me two .5mg of Ativan (a very small dose I believe). I am unsure if the pills actually worked. . . I mean I got on the flight and made it home with no panic attack. But I did not feel mentally any different, and I was still a bit anxious getting on the flight. Maybe it was just enough to take the edge off? At any rate I made it home. . but my anxiety would not allow me to rest now, it was in full swing and have a great time with my brain. Did you ever see the old original Star Trek series? There was not really a constant overarching theme to it. Each episode was a “monster of the week” type of story. That's how I feel like my anxiety is. Today I can have a panic attack because I am terrified that I have gotten some rare disease and tomorrow I can be in a full panic attack because Im scared Im going to get depressed. Yes, as odd as this sounds my latest episode is due to me worrying that I am going to become depressed as a result of my anxiety. I was sitting in my room at night, and this wave of dread washed over me, it's hard to explain. My thoughts were that I am alone right now, and as a result of being alone I am going to become depressed, and as a result of becoming depressed I am going to do something stupid. Mind you, I am not depressed right now but worried myself to sickness that I was going to be. . . does anyone else go through this crazy type of catastrophizing with their anxiety? I feel like im the only one and its driving me crazy.

 

[janemariesayed]

I have had anxiety for as long as I can remember. The odd thing about my anxiety is that it's not necessarily constant. It ebbs and flows throughout the course of my life it seems. Sometimes I can go a year without having a major outbreak, other times it seems that a second cannot pass during the day that I am not weighted down by it. I recently was traveling from overseas back to the united states. The plane ride had several logs but the longest was over the pacific for about 9 hours. About two hours into the flight, seemingly out of nowhere, I went into a full on panic attack. Talk about scary. . . a panic attack at 30,000 feet over the pacific ocean knowing that this plane was not landing any time soon. I jumped up and went to the gally where the flight attendants and explained to them that I was having a panic attack and needed them to talk me out of it. A lot of times I can push through my panic attacks if someone is talking to me and calming down. They did a great job and I made it through the flight. My next flight (which was my final leg) was 4 hours long. Coming off the incident on the pacific flight, I got to scared to get on my last plane and ended up missing my flight. It's a terrible feeling to know that you are too scared to get on a plane and subsequently being stuck unable to get home. I ended up going to the local ER and just explained to a Doctor there that I had severe anxiety and I need SOMETHING to get me through the flight. He gave me two .5mg of Ativan (a very small dose I believe). I am unsure if the pills actually worked. . . I mean I got on the flight and made it home with no panic attack. But I did not feel mentally any different, and I was still a bit anxious getting on the flight. Maybe it was just enough to take the edge off? At any rate I made it home. . but my anxiety would not allow me to rest now, it was in full swing and have a great time with my brain. Did you ever see the old original Star Trek series? There was not really a constant overarching theme to it. Each episode was a “monster of the week” type of story. That's how I feel like my anxiety is. Today I can have a panic attack because I am terrified that I have gotten some rare disease and tomorrow I can be in a full panic attack because Im scared Im going to get depressed. Yes, as odd as this sounds my latest episode is due to me worrying that I am going to become depressed as a result of my anxiety. I was sitting in my room at night, and this wave of dread washed over me, it's hard to explain. My thoughts were that I am alone right now, and as a result of being alone I am going to become depressed, and as a result of becoming depressed I am going to do something stupid. Mind you, I am not depressed right now but worried myself to sickness that I was going to be. . . does anyone else go through this crazy type of catastrophizing with their anxiety? I feel like im the only one and its driving me crazy.

Sometimes I wonder if anxiety has triggers. I'm getting flashbacks at the moment, both from my childhood and other times of my life. There is no control over what happens either and I just have to deal with them. Taking deep breaths helps
immensely.

You did a good thing to ask for help to be talked to a calm state. It seems like you are anxious about something and you don't know what the originator is. Time to go back to basics then. Search your childhood and see what happened there that made you like this in later life.

I know anxiety is hell to go through, I hate it and the only thing you can do is grounding techniques when it happens. You are not the only one. For starters you have 99% of this forum suffers like you are me included in that. So you are in the right place here to come and chat anytime for support.

 

[XmasCarol52]

I have had anxiety for as long as I can remember. The odd thing about my anxiety is that it's not necessarily constant. It ebbs and flows throughout the course of my life it seems. Sometimes I can go a year without having a major outbreak, other times it seems that a second cannot pass during the day that I am not weighted down by it. I recently was traveling from overseas back to the united states. The plane ride had several logs but the longest was over the pacific for about 9 hours. About two hours into the flight, seemingly out of nowhere, I went into a full on panic attack. Talk about scary. . . a panic attack at 30,000 feet over the pacific ocean knowing that this plane was not landing any time soon. I jumped up and went to the gally where the flight attendants and explained to them that I was having a panic attack and needed them to talk me out of it. A lot of times I can push through my panic attacks if someone is talking to me and calming down. They did a great job and I made it through the flight. My next flight (which was my final leg) was 4 hours long. Coming off the incident on the pacific flight, I got to scared to get on my last plane and ended up missing my flight. It's a terrible feeling to know that you are too scared to get on a plane and subsequently being stuck unable to get home. I ended up going to the local ER and just explained to a Doctor there that I had severe anxiety and I need SOMETHING to get me through the flight. He gave me two .5mg of Ativan (a very small dose I believe). I am unsure if the pills actually worked. . . I mean I got on the flight and made it home with no panic attack. But I did not feel mentally any different, and I was still a bit anxious getting on the flight. Maybe it was just enough to take the edge off? At any rate I made it home. . but my anxiety would not allow me to rest now, it was in full swing and have a great time with my brain. Did you ever see the old original Star Trek series? There was not really a constant overarching theme to it. Each episode was a “monster of the week” type of story. That's how I feel like my anxiety is. Today I can have a panic attack because I am terrified that I have gotten some rare disease and tomorrow I can be in a full panic attack because Im scared Im going to get depressed. Yes, as odd as this sounds my latest episode is due to me worrying that I am going to become depressed as a result of my anxiety. I was sitting in my room at night, and this wave of dread washed over me, it's hard to explain. My thoughts were that I am alone right now, and as a result of being alone I am going to become depressed, and as a result of becoming depressed I am going to do something stupid. Mind you, I am not depressed right now but worried myself to sickness that I was going to be. . . does anyone else go through this crazy type of catastrophizing with their anxiety? I feel like im the only one and its driving me crazy.

I have had anxiety for as long as I can remember. The odd thing about my anxiety is that it's not necessarily constant. It ebbs and flows throughout the course of my life it seems. Sometimes I can go a year without having a major outbreak, other times it seems that a second cannot pass during the day that I am not weighted down by it. I recently was traveling from overseas back to the united states. The plane ride had several logs but the longest was over the pacific for about 9 hours. About two hours into the flight, seemingly out of nowhere, I went into a full on panic attack. Talk about scary. . . a panic attack at 30,000 feet over the pacific ocean knowing that this plane was not landing any time soon. I jumped up and went to the gally where the flight attendants and explained to them that I was having a panic attack and needed them to talk me out of it. A lot of times I can push through my panic attacks if someone is talking to me and calming down. They did a great job and I made it through the flight. My next flight (which was my final leg) was 4 hours long. Coming off the incident on the pacific flight, I got to scared to get on my last plane and ended up missing my flight. It's a terrible feeling to know that you are too scared to get on a plane and subsequently being stuck unable to get home. I ended up going to the local ER and just explained to a Doctor there that I had severe anxiety and I need SOMETHING to get me through the flight. He gave me two .5mg of Ativan (a very small dose I believe). I am unsure if the pills actually worked. . . I mean I got on the flight and made it home with no panic attack. But I did not feel mentally any different, and I was still a bit anxious getting on the flight. Maybe it was just enough to take the edge off? At any rate I made it home. . but my anxiety would not allow me to rest now, it was in full swing and have a great time with my brain. Did you ever see the old original Star Trek series? There was not really a constant overarching theme to it. Each episode was a “monster of the week” type of story. That's how I feel like my anxiety is. Today I can have a panic attack because I am terrified that I have gotten some rare disease and tomorrow I can be in a full panic attack because Im scared Im going to get depressed. Yes, as odd as this sounds my latest episode is due to me worrying that I am going to become depressed as a result of my anxiety. I was sitting in my room at night, and this wave of dread washed over me, it's hard to explain. My thoughts were that I am alone right now, and as a result of being alone I am going to become depressed, and as a result of becoming depressed I am going to do something stupid. Mind you, I am not depressed right now but worried myself to sickness that I was going to be. . . does anyone else go through this crazy type of catastrophizing with their anxiety? I feel like im the only one and its driving me crazy.

Hi and welcome boy do I ever understand where you are coming from with me I get anxieties just thinking about them physical illnesses are the worse for me because whenever I do get sick my anxieties seem to develop into a panic attack then it can lasts for days>i also suffer with bipolar,depression and a mood disorder which plays havoc with my brain.I never know what is going to happen just like this morning i wasnt awake for five minutes and I already am angry I started to yell not at anyone just wanted my heat to work not go out again.I am 65 and I do not need to be freezing and sometimes the people around here hassle you which makes me more nervous.With me though every little thing seems to upset me I just get so rattled and anxious so easily i dont yell all of the time good thing too but still i dont feel like I am normal.