Crying and falling apart

[Giarose25]

I’m so frustrated and scared like I don’t understand what is going on. The past few days I keep getting what feels like an uncomfortable tickle down my spine and my legs and it’s hard to ignore and brush off. Of coarse I am thinking about it constantly and my right leg feels more weaker and now I got up and my legs felt so heavy and i panicked and cried instantly. I’ve been seeing someone weekly still very basic nothing too deep because I’ve been having good days but then these sensations are driving me crazy and the MS fear comes back like a bullet. I get tingling in the middle of my forehead that makes me want to hit myself and this mild tingling in my cheek. I even feel weird sensation in my private area(sorry for the tmi) but I feel so anxious everywhere I don’t know what’s normal or not o feel like any minute I won’t be able to lift my leg. I would never take my own life but man I get so down and sad and scared I don’t know what to do anymore. Before September I was in school, with my daughter, going on vacations, I’d have a rough few days every now and then but I handled it well. I am falling apart and I am just so scared I am that percentage where there is actually something wrong.

 

[Kari7495]

Hi so it sounds like you just have extreme anxiety.

Take it from me. I was posting on here sometimes twice daily scared and frightened of some of the same symptoms of you and I'm finally getting better. These symptoms and thoughts WILL go away. I know it's scary when their happening but if you hyper focus on them it only makes them worse. You have to accept its anxiety and theres nothing wrong. Anxiety can mimic illnesses (ms too) and if you read symptoms and google it will copy it

Please dont be scared. You got this hun. Anxiety is a devil, it prays on our fears and feeds off them

 

[Giarose25]

Hi so it sounds like you just have extreme anxiety.

Take it from me. I was posting on here sometimes twice daily scared and frightened of some of the same symptoms of you and I'm finally getting better. These symptoms and thoughts WILL go away. I know it's scary when their happening but if you hyper focus on them it only makes them worse. You have to accept its anxiety and theres nothing wrong. Anxiety can mimic illnesses (ms too) and if you read symptoms and google it will copy it

Please dont be scared. You got this hun. Anxiety is a devil, it prays on our fears and feeds off them

Thank you for responding even reading your response made me cry because it calms me down to hear someone say I have some of your symptoms and I have been off of google since October but I scarred myself enough with everything I read . My doctor reassured me so many times that it wasn’t MS but the fact that I haven’t had my spine checked it’s hard to ignore so many others that I read had it with a normal brain mri. So I feel still so scared and like she is not checking me correctly. I feel so scared o can’t stop crying my back spine feels weird and my legs feel like they’re vibrating. I’m really scared

 

[Kari7495]

Thank you for responding even reading your response made me cry because it calms me down to hear someone say I have some of your symptoms and I have been off of google since October but I scarred myself enough with everything I read . My doctor reassured me so many times that it wasn’t MS but the fact that I haven’t had my spine checked it’s hard to ignore so many others that I read had it with a normal brain mri. So I feel still so scared and like she is not checking me correctly. I feel so scared o can’t stop crying my back spine feels weird and my legs feel like they’re vibrating. I’m really scared

One of the most common thoughts of hypochondria is the assumption a doctor missed something. Trust me I dealt with the same thing as I was having brain twitches and head tremors I was convinced I was epileptic which I'm not. It took so long to finally accept my anxiety was turning my worst fears against me and mimicking symptoms or making up new symptoms that I could relate to that. It doesnt go away in a day. The back of your mind will constantly make up new symptoms until its ready to let go. So even if you are thinking you arent anxious or I'm calm right now why is this happening. Theres still that small part that isnt calm that's freaking out and causing symptoms .

 

[Shreddykrugaer]

I’m so frustrated and scared like I don’t understand what is going on. The past few days I keep getting what feels like an uncomfortable tickle down my spine and my legs and it’s hard to ignore and brush off. Of coarse I am thinking about it constantly and my right leg feels more weaker and now I got up and my legs felt so heavy and i panicked and cried instantly. I’ve been seeing someone weekly still very basic nothing too deep because I’ve been having good days but then these sensations are driving me crazy and the MS fear comes back like a bullet. I get tingling in the middle of my forehead that makes me want to hit myself and this mild tingling in my cheek. I even feel weird sensation in my private area(sorry for the tmi) but I feel so anxious everywhere I don’t know what’s normal or not o feel like any minute I won’t be able to lift my leg. I would never take my own life but man I get so down and sad and scared I don’t know what to do anymore. Before September I was in school, with my daughter, going on vacations, I’d have a rough few days every now and then but I handled it well. I am falling apart and I am just so scared I am that percentage where there is actually something wrong.

Id see a doctor about your mental health tbh it did nothing for me but just knowing there wasnt anything physically wrong with me was what helped pull me out i got diagnosed with panic disorder a couple weeks ago in full sustained remission. But I was posting here all the time and the panic attacks felt newer and stronger every day i felt something new it was horrible but i started watching for the triggers and preparing myself to not respond to them and to jusy keep doing what i was doing to not acknowlage them its extremely tough specially when its the forst tiem you've ever experienced something like this but it ia possible to beat it . i was having panic attacks of heart related issues about 3 times a day for about 20 minutes where i wouldnt be able to talk think or move and would be shaking violently. I know every new feeling in your body is a sign to be scared of but your getting older and your bodu is use all day long theres bound to be numbness tingles and little pricks all day long to much focus on something makes it seem way worse then it is its a very stressful and unhealthy way to live focus on how unhealthy of a mind state anxiety causes instead of physical sickness that isnt there.

 

[Giarose25]

One of the most common thoughts of hypochondria is the assumption a doctor missed something. Trust me I dealt with the same thing as I was having brain twitches and head tremors I was convinced I was epileptic which I'm not. It took so long to finally accept my anxiety was turning my worst fears against me and mimicking symptoms or making up new symptoms that I could relate to that. It doesnt go away in a day. The back of your mind will constantly make up new symptoms until its ready to let go. So even if you are thinking you arent anxious or I'm calm right now why is this happening. Theres still that small part that isnt calm that's freaking out and causing symptoms .

I keep reminding myself that I did so much damage I read every person who posted about their diagnosis And how some were misdiagnosed. By the time I saw my neurologist I had all the answers. I saw two doctors her and a rheumatologist after borderline positive blood test. I gave myself severe joint pain about lupus too so I am very aware of how whacked out my brain is but it’s so hard certain times to fight back and say stop you know what this is most likely. Even now I feel silly but I really freaked out so fast and my legs got heavy so quick. The therapist told me exactly what you said about me reminding myself that I may think I’m calm but it’s still there in my brain. My family is really frustrated with me and now I am a bit frustrated with myself

Id see a doctor about your mental health tbh it did nothing for me but just knowing there wasnt anything physically wrong with me was what helped pull me out i got diagnosed with panic disorder a couple weeks ago in full sustained remission. But I was posting here all the time and the panic attacks felt newer and stronger every day i felt something new it was horrible but i started watching for the triggers and preparing myself to not respond to them and to jusy keep doing what i was doing to not acknowlage them its extremely tough specially when its the forst tiem you've ever experienced something like this but it ia possible to beat it . i was having panic attacks of heart related issues about 3 times a day for about 20 minutes where i wouldnt be able to talk think or move and would be shaking violently. I know every new feeling in your body is a sign to be scared of but your getting older and your bodu is use all day long theres bound to be numbness tingles and little pricks all day long to much focus on something makes it seem way worse then it is its a very stressful and unhealthy way to live focus on how unhealthy of a mind state anxiety causes instead of physical sickness that isnt there.

I am, once a week and I got diagnosed late October with obsessive compulsive disorder which has helped me understand many things about myself that I did not even think to question but I really think I traumatized myself. I am so scared of my neurologist being wrong after all my googling I did when I first started this that the minute I feel something it’s like yup ya see here it goes. I was in the middle of decorating my tree and I felt like that feeling in my spine got worse so I sat down then I got up and my legs felt so heavy that I cried instantly. I felt that fear that I felt when this first started now I feel so embarrassed that I posted about it

 

[Shreddykrugaer]

I keep reminding myself that I did so much damage I read every person who posted about their diagnosis And how some were misdiagnosed. By the time I saw my neurologist I had all the answers. I saw two doctors her and a rheumatologist after borderline positive blood test. I gave myself severe joint pain about lupus too so I am very aware of how whacked out my brain is but it’s so hard certain times to fight back and say stop you know what this is most likely. Even now I feel silly but I really freaked out so fast and my legs got heavy so quick. The therapist told me exactly what you said about me reminding myself that I may think I’m calm but it’s still there in my brain. My family is really frustrated with me and now I am a bit frustrated with myself

I am, once a week and I got diagnosed late October with obsessive compulsive disorder which has helped me understand many things about myself that I did not even think to question but I really think I traumatized myself. I am so scared of my neurologist being wrong after all my googling I did when I first started this that the minute I feel something it’s like yup ya see here it goes. I was in the middle of decorating my tree and I felt like that feeling in my spine got worse so I sat down then I got up and my legs felt so heavy that I cried instantly. I felt that fear that I felt when this first started now I feel so embarrassed that I posted about it

Habe you been medicated or anything? What are your triggers ?

 

[Giarose25]

Habe you been medicated or anything? What are your triggers ?

To be honest I think stress period, like I am realizing I am an anxious person all around, my highs are extremely high and my lows are extremely low. I psyched myself out last year in Disney so excited for my fiancé to get on a ride I knew he was going to love and i had a panic attack as we were getting on the ride and that stemmed from excitement! I feel like a mess because I really just feel like my brain is out of whack!!

 

[April]

I have and have had almost all your symptoms. Even the private part tingles! I even googled that and panicked because I thought it was something else. Which made it worse and it wouldn't go away. I have since no longer fear that and it has went away. It went from constant to once in a blue moon when I'm really anxious. Currently I am dealing with body tingles, vibrating lower legs/feet. Pins and needles. I have commented on your other post about it. It is stress and anxiety. We have to not focus on it. Allow it to happen, observe the feelings, challenge the negative/scary thoughts that occur. They will go away. With time. They are not dangerous. I am trying to take my own advice

 

[JustMe]

Really try mindful meditation! I am still scared as hell about MS (i have every symptom) but when I catch myself freaking out i try to turn on my amazon music to some guided mindful meditation and it really helps to acknowledge and feel what is happening to your body but then let that feeling go. It helps you face the feelings not try to push them down where they hide just to pop back up later. I totally understand the crying part too. I've been feeling pretty good and my symptoms are lessoning it seems the more i don't feed into them but then yesterday I noticed my left rib area on my back hurt. I immediately thought it has to be some type of cancer. As soon as I touched the spot to see if it really hurt and it did. I started hysterically crying for an hour because I "know" it's something bad. Wtf is wrong with me? And my poor husband and kids have to deal with me. I finally came to my senses and turned on my guided meditation thing and felt 99% better. I'm making an appointment to get into my therapist sooner now but I'm thinking that mindful meditation is really helping. I mean I'm not perfect yet but I'm not in the ER every night either. Message me if you ever need to! I've also refuse to look at news or google and haven't for over a month now it is so hard but it has helped. I know we have already looked up stuff in the past that fuels our irrational thinking but it would be so much worse if we were still looking up stuff. Anyways, keep your head up! This will all pass with time!

 

[April]

I do mindful meditation and yes it helps! I mostly like to do in while taking a nice bubble bath. I've noticed that when I meditate and soak in the tub, relaxed, I don't feel any of those physical sensations. So, I can confirm it is anxiety/stress. Now to only train my brain to keep those red flags away! ha. Just know that they will go away and your health anxiety will too. I have it really bad myself. I bought a self help book for CBT therapy. This has been a life saver for me. It helps tremendously with knowing that if I don't fight the feelings, let them happen, challenge the scary thought (throw out evidence that it is false), I don't get as scared. If you would like to know the workbook I use, let me know. I purchased it on Amazon for around $10 or $12. WORTH IT. Message me whenever you need to as well! Any of you. I'm making awesome progress using self help books and reading. I can share any tips I've picked up. For perspective, almost exactly 2 months ago I was in the ER, erratic, and barely slept for over a month. I was sure I was either dying or losing my mind. In that time I was in and out of the ER, crying/panicking every day all day. I wanted the suffering to end but it wouldn't. I can barely remember Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's. That is how bad I was. I went four straight days without sleeping, then I'd crash and stay up for another 1-3 days. I was so terrified. I was sure my brain was malfunctioning and I would never be the same again. Today, I am almost a new person. I can catch the irrational fear before it progresses and change how I feel about it. I don't google symptoms, I google anxiety. The more I learn all about anxiety and what it can do to you physically and mentally, the more I know I'm not dying or losing my mind. Does that make sense? You got this, ladies!

 

[JustMe]

I do mindful meditation and yes it helps! I mostly like to do in while taking a nice bubble bath. I've noticed that when I meditate and soak in the tub, relaxed, I don't feel any of those physical sensations. So, I can confirm it is anxiety/stress. Now to only train my brain to keep those red flags away! ha. Just know that they will go away and your health anxiety will too. I have it really bad myself. I bought a self help book for CBT therapy. This has been a life saver for me. It helps tremendously with knowing that if I don't fight the feelings, let them happen, challenge the scary thought (throw out evidence that it is false), I don't get as scared. If you would like to know the workbook I use, let me know. I purchased it on Amazon for around $10 or $12. WORTH IT. Message me whenever you need to as well! Any of you. I'm making awesome progress using self help books and reading. I can share any tips I've picked up. For perspective, almost exactly 2 months ago I was in the ER, erratic, and barely slept for over a month. I was sure I was either dying or losing my mind. In that time I was in and out of the ER, crying/panicking every day all day. I wanted the suffering to end but it wouldn't. I can barely remember Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's. That is how bad I was. I went four straight days without sleeping, then I'd crash and stay up for another 1-3 days. I was so terrified. I was sure my brain was malfunctioning and I would never be the same again. Today, I am almost a new person. I can catch the irrational fear before it progresses and change how I feel about it. I don't google symptoms, I google anxiety. The more I learn all about anxiety and what it can do to you physically and mentally, the more I know I'm not dying or losing my mind. Does that make sense? You got this, ladies!

I was in the same place around those times. Finally the ER said I needed to go home and sleep or I was going to have a complete nervous breakdown. I was scared to death to even try to sleep because I thought I was going to die. Everything from the last few months since I've had my miscarriage is a blur. Can you please send me a link to that cbt book?

 

[April]

I was in the same place around those times. Finally the ER said I needed to go home and sleep or I was going to have a complete nervous breakdown. I was scared to death to even try to sleep because I thought I was going to die. Everything from the last few months since I've had my miscarriage is a blur. Can you please send me a link to that cbt book?

Sure can. My mistake, it's $13.69 now. But still worth it. It's very detailed and you have to put in the effort on the exercises. Let me know if the link doesn't work. https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/160623918X/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o05_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1

Sure can. My mistake, it's $13.69 now. But still worth it. It's very detailed and you have to put in the effort on the exercises. Let me know if the link doesn't work. https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/160623918X/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o05_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1

Here is also the link to the PDF copy for printing out the worksheets, for you'll need to make copies. If you didn't want to buy the book, you could print out the 300+pages ha. http://dl.booktolearn.com/ebooks2/science/psychology/9781606239186_the_anxiety_and_worry_workbook_2c3b.pdf

 

[Ms.Honey]

Im in the same boat here, it’s been so bad for a couple of weeks now. Tingling all over, my whole body feels like it’s buzzing sometimes. I’m going crazy but trying to remind myself it WILL go away. It’s so hard.

 

[Giarose25]

Really try mindful meditation! I am still scared as hell about MS (i have every symptom) but when I catch myself freaking out i try to turn on my amazon music to some guided mindful meditation and it really helps to acknowledge and feel what is happening to your body but then let that feeling go. It helps you face the feelings not try to push them down where they hide just to pop back up later. I totally understand the crying part too. I've been feeling pretty good and my symptoms are lessoning it seems the more i don't feed into them but then yesterday I noticed my left rib area on my back hurt. I immediately thought it has to be some type of cancer. As soon as I touched the spot to see if it really hurt and it did. I started hysterically crying for an hour because I "know" it's something bad. Wtf is wrong with me? And my poor husband and kids have to deal with me. I finally came to my senses and turned on my guided meditation thing and felt 99% better. I'm making an appointment to get into my therapist sooner now but I'm thinking that mindful meditation is really helping. I mean I'm not perfect yet but I'm not in the ER every night either. Message me if you ever need to! I've also refuse to look at news or google and haven't for over a month now it is so hard but it has helped. I know we have already looked up stuff in the past that fuels our irrational thinking but it would be so much worse if we were still looking up stuff. Anyways, keep your head up! This will all pass with time!

Thank you so much for the reply. I don’t even want to jinx it but I’ve been feeling great! I got those sensations and literally got annoyed with myself and said nope not paying it mind and it went away. I really have been doing exactly what you said and it works, acknowledging instead of fighting these sensations which cause things to intensify!

I have and have had almost all your symptoms. Even the private part tingles! I even googled that and panicked because I thought it was something else. Which made it worse and it wouldn't go away. I have since no longer fear that and it has went away. It went from constant to once in a blue moon when I'm really anxious. Currently I am dealing with body tingles, vibrating lower legs/feet. Pins and needles. I have commented on your other post about it. It is stress and anxiety. We have to not focus on it. Allow it to happen, observe the feelings, challenge the negative/scary thoughts that occur. They will go away. With time. They are not dangerous. I am trying to take my own advice

Thank you so much when you hear someone going through the same exact off sensations especially in your lady parts(I was so embarrassed to even put out there at first!!!) i have been just shrugging it off and I’ve been having some good days I hope they last!!!

I was in the same place around those times. Finally the ER said I needed to go home and sleep or I was going to have a complete nervous breakdown. I was scared to death to even try to sleep because I thought I was going to die. Everything from the last few months since I've had my miscarriage is a blur. Can you please send me a link to that cbt book?

That was me in September to october. Nonstop crying no appetite, no sleep, I was convinced I had something that was going to disable me. Even thinking of that time makes my stomach turn because the fear felt so real in that month. This site has helped me a lot, with understanding how much hyper focusing can drive symptoms haywire! I have to go on and off with this site though only because sometimes you read threads that may trigger or cause you to overthink again and gets cared for yourself and that’s when I know I have to take a break!

 

[April]

Thank you so much for the reply. I don’t even want to jinx it but I’ve been feeling great! I got those sensations and literally got annoyed with myself and said nope not paying it mind and it went away. I really have been doing exactly what you said and it works, acknowledging instead of fighting these sensations which cause things to intensify!

Thank you so much when you hear someone going through the same exact off sensations especially in your lady parts(I was so embarrassed to even put out there at first!!!) i have been just shrugging it off and I’ve been having some good days I hope they last!!!

That was me in September to october. Nonstop crying no appetite, no sleep, I was convinced I had something that was going to disable me. Even thinking of that time makes my stomach turn because the fear felt so real in that month. This site has helped me a lot, with understanding how much hyper focusing can drive symptoms haywire! I have to go on and off with this site though only because sometimes you read threads that may trigger or cause you to overthink again and gets cared for yourself and that’s when I know I have to take a break!

I too was embarrassed of the lady part sensations. I convinced myself it has to be anxiety because how was I to explain that to my husband, doctor, etc. I thought it was hormones. Nope. Anxiety. I am happy to report that today, I have NO body tingles! None. If I get a bit of anxious feelings with a what if thought, then they will spark up. I have classified those tingles into my fight or flight response alarm. That will be the sole sensation to alarm me. And the sole reason not to fear it. I want to share this website I stumbled across while viciously googling body tingles (I do that...). She explains wonderfully all that makes sense with that and everything we feel. Read it all the way through. I immediately felt relief reading it. www.theworrygames.com I spend a lot of my time reading about anxiety. This is what calms my worse fears.

Im in the same boat here, it’s been so bad for a couple of weeks now. Tingling all over, my whole body feels like it’s buzzing sometimes. I’m going crazy but trying to remind myself it WILL go away. It’s so hard.

Ms. Honey I can assure you they go away. I felt them since October and now they are gone. Once I learned to not fear them, not google them and accepted they are just anxiety and stress. Adrenaline. Even if you have them constantly, that is what it is and they will go away. Take a nice hot bath with some Epsom salt, put on a mindful meditation from youtube and you will see that they go away once you are relaxed, not thinking about them. That was how I knew it was just anxiety. I do the bath routine nightly. It's been a huge help for calm. Message me anytime if I can help you be at ease