Crazy feelings of impending death

[Benpro98]

Hello guys, hope I do not trigger anyone and can seek help or advice.

I have dealt with anxiety for three years now and it has some good days and some bad days, it was to the point I was going to the hospital everyday. I would go mainly because I have hypertension and afib at 21 which really sucks. But I was able to control myself and get it under wrap, now though I am seriously scared to the bone because I have been having very in depth dejavu or precognition and it hasn't happened for a while but when it did before a feeling of realism never came with it. This is what happens:

I get a job near my girlfriends and I'm working with this guy at the cash registers, I tell him I canr breath and to call 911. He says what and I pass out like a sack if potatoes, when I come to I'm in the ambulance and I'm being told in dying. I get to the highway and call my dad ( which has disowned me recently and told me to die) I tell him what they say and he doesn't believe me. When we get to the hospital my girlfriend is there and shes on the phone with my dad as well as the doctor. They say I dont have long and that he needs to hurry. When he gets there I start to freak out and feel it coming. I began to cry and tell my dad I'm scared and don't want to die anytime soon. He tells me hes sorry and I won't then everything goes black and I'm gone.


Now this has happened before with my birthday and Christmas and other big stressful days. At one point before march like many for two months before my birthday I had dejavu or whatever that if I went to my grandmas I would keel over and die in her den. So everyone came to my little house and sat on the couch and nothing happened.....

Please if anyone experiences this help me understand, I feel alone and scared t bh it makes me cry more then anything. I'm not ready to go and I want to know I'm not going to
I apologize for the typing my phone sucks with auto correct

 

[Kelculator]

I'm so sorry to know this. I cannot imagine how stressful it is to have these episodes so often. I'm glad you chose to share this. You really really shouldn't do this alone, because everyone deserves help, and in your case you definitely need it.
I think you suffer from panic attacks. Maybe you already know this, but since you didn't mention I thought I should suggest. Panic attacks are episodes of you suffering from horrible anxiety, and hence cannot breath, sufferers also often faint. Sounds like your case.
Do you see a doctor? Is there anyone that can help with your anxiety? You did people who understand anxiety and wouldn't judge you. A lot of people suffer from anxiety disorders, so there is always hope out there. You will be okay.

 

[Benpro98]

Kelculator.

I appreciate the advice and insight, yes I do have knowledge of my panic attacks. But this far exceeds any panic attack, this is as if I see what happens before it does. It feels so real that I am afraid to work there and I have thought about anywhere else I could go and it seems to have the same out come like there's no running. I feel like I'm the only person that has ever dealt with this and I would love to know why this is happening and what this truly is

 

[Cuchculan]

Maybe you a playing out what you father told you to go and do. He told you to go and die. You ring your dad. Bit like calling him to say what he wanted is going to happen. Then you have the whole hospital side of things. He shows up and regreats what he has said. Like he feels guilty. In your subconscious mind maybe this is how you would like him to feel. After him saying what he did to you. If it really came down to that, how exacrtly would he feel? This is your mind playing that whole senario out. It is not a sign of actual death going to really happen to you any day soon. It is simply related to your father and the things he said to you.

 

[traveller]

Hi Benpro98,

I used to have panic attacks and I can also relate to "feeling of impending doom". I still get it sometimes but the frequency has reduced a lot from one every 15 days to once in 6 months. This is how I changed my lifestyle after frequent panic attacks.

1. I got a full medical check-up to rule out any conditions that would trigger the "feeling of impending doom". So my mind knew that there is nothing wrong with me physically.
2. I changed my diet and cut out processed foods and sugar and switched to veggies and healthier form of carbs
3. Started exercising regularly (4 times a week)
4. Most important - Understand the root cause of your anxiety and change the though process by watching videos on YouTube (Bob Proctor is really good when it comes to this)
5. Having faith in God has helped me a lot and knowing that i don't know it all, I just leave the things I cant control to him.

I hope this helps and I really hope you overcome your anxiety. Sending you lot of positive thoughts and vibrations. Feel free to ask any questions and I can help.