Complete failure

[BandB]

I took on a role that was too big for me. Had an anxiety attack Friday night/Saturday morning. Went out to chase some joy with my son's and ended up with a nonstop nosebleed, BP in stroke range and a trip to the ER with my son's (who were scared to death). I received treatment for HBP and started on an anxiety med yesterday. I am a failure. I can't conquer anything. I can't tackle hard things. I have near constant ideation because this is just another thing that I've failed at. Reaching out for support, similar stories, etc.

 

[Cuchculan]

When anxiety hits us in that sort of way we always feel that we have let those around us down. But you anxiety and that will get in the way of some things in life. That might not always be the case. I always say there is a road back. Talk to your sons. Explain what was going on. I am unsure of their ages. If old enough tell them the truth about the anxiety. If young just say you were unwell. Just don't be afraid to face them. There are times we think we are ready to do certain things. We are not. Not just yet. That does not mean we are a failure. That means we took it one step too far this time. At this moment in our life we are unable for certain things. Lord knows the amount of things I have had to miss over the years. The few I tried and couldn't do. Now is not the time to be beating yourself up over this. Now is the time to calm back down and work out a plan of action for the next steps you will take in getting better.

 

[Wandering123]

I can relate. I have failed at my jobs. I left my last one because my boss threw my under the bus. I'm currently working but it's a disaster with no training, unrealistic expectations and an work load that's enormous. All the while they make me feel like ****. I wish I could find a job that I can go to, feel decent about it and be successful. Been job searching but I know it will be a **** job because I can't handle anything else.