I took on a role that was too big for me. Had an anxiety attack Friday night/Saturday morning. Went out to chase some joy with my son's and ended up with a nonstop nosebleed, BP in stroke range and a trip to the ER with my son's (who were scared to death). I received treatment for HBP and started on an anxiety med yesterday. I am a failure. I can't conquer anything. I can't tackle hard things. I have near constant ideation because this is just another thing that I've failed at. Reaching out for support, similar stories, etc.