hi guys, here I am again. I've already written some posts and some of you maybe remember them. For almost two years I have been thinking that I have colon cancer. Actually going back in time, I have always been a person with irritable bowel symptoms (I remember that it was perfectly normal for me to come to defecate during a meal for example: I used to go to the bathroom and get back to eat), but irrationally since March of 'last year I convinced myself that something was wrong and I started reading dozens and dozens of stories on the internet (if you know the page https://www.cancerresearchuk.org/ I advise you to avoid it) and I fell into the spiral of fear. A gastroenterologist from my hometown hospital visited me 4 times. He did various ultrasound scans, rectal examinations, stool tests to evaluate colon inflammation, and all came back negative. He quickly became convinced that I had IBS and kept his diagnosis. He always said there was no need to do a colonscopy. I'm 39 now. I have good times and bad times. In the last two months after a probiotic treatment I have been very well, now in the last two weeks the problems have started again. I normally go to the bathroom 2 times a day, in the last 9 days I have had 3 episodes where I went three times. The first two times after dinner (actually I was eating a lot of veggie burgers) and today, after eating a smoothie that I always eat, I had abdominal pain and had to run to the bathroom again with mild diarrhea. I haven't seen the gastroenterologist since February and with the pandemic I didn't dare to call him again. I am very tense, I was better, I had relaxed, and now I have fallen back into the tunnel.