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Cancer everywhere

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I have been doing so good lately and this past week it has hit me like a tsunami. I cant stop crying today and I'm convinced I'm dying or at the very least, very sick. Started with finding a lump in my breast at my gyno. She is sending me to have a mammogram next week. I'm 32 and have cysts in my breast but this feels different and that's why she wants it examined.

Then, I have had this constant itch in my vaginal area(Tmi I know) and she gave me medicine but I'm convinced in vulva cancer.

Then, I had a anal fissure last yr and it got better but never went away completely and this past 2 weeks it's been bothering me again and I'm convinced it is not a fissure but anal cancer.

Yall I am a complete wreck. Cant stop crying. Cant get my mind off cancer and I just dont know what to do anymore. I just want yo be normal. Normal people would think, I have a cyst in my breast, I have a yeast infection and I have a hemmriod. But not me, its immediately cancer and even though i know how stupid it is, I just cant stop myself from jumping to these conclusions until they are proven otherwise and then I feel good for a month or so then it's something new. I am so tired of this roller coaster! I am on zoloft, been on it for 5 months now. A week ago I was fine, now i am dying.
 

triceps

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I have been doing so good lately and this past week it has hit me like a tsunami. I cant stop crying today and I'm convinced I'm dying or at the very least, very sick. Started with finding a lump in my breast at my gyno. She is sending me to have a mammogram next week. I'm 32 and have cysts in my breast but this feels different and that's why she wants it examined.

Then, I have had this constant itch in my vaginal area(Tmi I know) and she gave me medicine but I'm convinced in vulva cancer.

Then, I had a anal fissure last yr and it got better but never went away completely and this past 2 weeks it's been bothering me again and I'm convinced it is not a fissure but anal cancer.

Yall I am a complete wreck. Cant stop crying. CanReplyt get my mind off cancer and I just dont know what to do anymore. I just want yo be normal. Normal people would think, I have a cyst in my breast, I have a yeast infection and I have a hemmriod. But not me, its immediately cancer and even though i know how stupid it is, I just cant stop myself from jumping to these conclusions until they are proven otherwise and then I feel good for a month or so then it's something new. I am so tired of this roller coaster! I am on zoloft, been on it for 5 months now. A week ago I was fine, now i am dying.
Hi Mandah. Gosh, it's such a shame that you've spiraled downward after feeling so well. Then on top of it, you've managed to obsess about having cancer in the three areas I'm assuming are the most embarrassing to have checked out. "You have a cyst in your breast, you have a yeast infection and you have a hemmoriod." These are by far the most likely scenarios just as you've stated yourself. I would try, as difficult as it is, to concentrate on your underlying (rational) assessment and toss aside any cancer-related, negative thinking. Keep your chin up, your scratching to a minimum and think back to how good you felt just a week ago.
 

Rosy

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I'm sure you are not dying. My daughter just had to have 2 mamograms done cause the first one showed changes. She is okay but she did worry about it. I had to have a breast biopsy. I am not young and my mom died from cancer so like you I worried about me and my daughter. I am okay too. So it is natural to be concerned. You have anxiety as I do and so you will overthink and magnify the situation like we all do. Keep telling yourself it is just anxiety making you think like this and try to get your mind on something or someone else. I know the waiting is hard. I hate the waiting. lol I hope someone can give you better advice on how to get your mind off of it. This is a good site and there are very caring people on here to help you. Your meds should help too. I hope you can get your worrying under control and start feeling better soon.
 
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