Once a year or so I'll start to feel weird. I might start having vision problems or heart palpitations with an inability to sleep. All of a sudden my head feels full and my thoughts seems clouded and I become miserable. I just get super anxious and obsessively worry about it never going away and feeling this way forever and I just lose all joy in everything. I stop being able to focus I feel like my brain just stops working right. Its terrifying. I always try to tell myself that it is temporary (and so far it always has been) but I just can't stop worrying I'm going to feel this way forever. I have thoughts like, what if I have a tumor and its only going to get worse, or some weird disease, or something crazy. I tell myself in all likelihood I have an anxiety disorder and that every once in awhile the chemicals in my brain just get a little mixed up or that something triggers it and it will go away but I just can't stop worrying. I guess I'm just hoping that someone else goes through something similar to reassure that it will go away this time. If I could have some all knowing being come down and talk to me and be like "yeah you have this thing and once every year or so you are going to suffer but it will always go away after about 2 weeks to a month" then I'd be fine and be like oh okay, as long as I don't have to deal with it forever.