Can’t sleep

[Toasthead]

I normally medicate my anxiety and depression with cannabis. I know self medicating is normally a bad idea, but weed genuinely helps alleviate my symptoms. It calms me down, cheers me up, and helps me sleep. I never understood just how much it helped me until my relatives came over for the holidays and I decided that since I didn’t want to be high around my family or avoid them so I could get high I may as well just take a break from it while they’re here. I’ve had some trouble sleeping the past couple nights, but nothing to bad until now. Tonight I literally feel like I’m surrounded by demons, I’m afraid to shut my eyes, it’s been so long since I’ve felt this much anxiety, I’m a grown man jumping at every shadow and noise in fear of things that don’t exist and impossible traumas. I feel like I’m being weighed down by my own thoughts. It’s almost 4am and my brain is screaming internally. The only way I can describe the feeling is like cognitive static, it’s like a thousand negative thoughts firing off all at once and together it’s like white noise.

I know I’ll be ok, I’ve been through this before and I know there’s a light at the end of this tunnel. I just have to get through the next couple days and I can start medicating again. I’m writing this more as a way to help me understand myself better and to see if anyone else has had similar experiences like this. Tbh I just need some support rn.


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[Cuchculan]

So used to smoking weed. Now you have to go without. Like anything you are used to that you use for a purpose. You used it to relax you and help you sleep. This is what is called rebound anxiety. The mind is aware you stopped smoking the weed and the mind is reacting to that. Happens with medication too. Even if people come off the medication the right way. Rebound anxiety will probably occur. Just the mind aware they have stopped the medication. Starts playing tricks on the body.

 

[babyfox]

I wish I could reach out a fix all that you feel. I havent had the same experience but will talk to you about it if that will help

 

[Toasthead]

The more I thought about it today, I realized it was most likely caused by caffeine. I had like two cups of Irish coffee a few hours before bed and didn’t even think about it keeping me up. Whatever the reason for what happened I just hope it doesn’t happen again tonight. I could’ve taken a quick puff off my cart before bed and no one would’ve been the wiser, but I wanted to take a break from cannabis for a bit anyway to reset my tolerance and to see if I could go without it more often. I’ve worried lately that I’m dependent on it, but if it helps me and there aren’t any real negative side effects then what’s the harm? I constantly stress about my family finding out. Aside from being kicked out of the house I would hate to become the black sheep of the family. They can be super judgmental and I know they’d never understand, they talk crap about there friends that use it medicinally and I could easily see them doing the same thing with me. I worry about all this despite the fact that before I started smoking weed I was miserable and depressed, with hardly any friends, I drank constantly, and worked a crappy part time job making peanuts. But after I started using cannabis I made new friends, I became happier and more relaxed, I only drink when my friends wanna go drinking, and I landed a full time traveling job making $16 an hour. Weed makes me feel more confident and happy and it significantly reduces my anxiety more than any pill would.


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[Cuchculan]

Irish cofee as a rule has alcohol in it? Says the Irishman. You would imagine that might knock you out. Has whisky in it. Along with cofee and cream. ( If done right ) Maybe knock the coffee and just stick to the whisky.

 

[Toasthead]

Irish cofee as a rule has alcohol in it? Says the Irishman. You would imagine that might knock you out. Has whisky in it. Along with cofee and cream. ( If done right ) Maybe knock the coffee and just stick to the whisky.

Lol true, I thought it would help me sleep, but apparently not. I don’t drink very often nowadays but it was Christmas.


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