Brand new member looking for help

[ASAPETE]

Hi everyone my name is Pete and I suffer for anxiety pretty bad...

I had a REAL bad up bringing for a VERY SICK SOB sorry about. I carry a lot of anger and feel scared at the same time. I'm a fit gut that can defend himself and I still feel like a child at times that is going to be touched and hit.

My biggest issues are ANYTIME I'm alone I feel anxious and feel scared and don't know why.... I have a great career I'm a Christian man that plays drums on the worship team and I feel like I'm hiding from it. When I'm alone I feel like I'm not alone if that makes sense... I'm not a weirdo either. I'm very normal but I have this stupid condition that WILL not leave me alone...

I have a heart condition called Afib with SVT but I think ALOT of it comes from my anxiety...Been to hospital over 10 time to have my heart shocked back Ito rhythm;.... I noticed I was very stressed out at the times it goes out.

Any help would be so crazy cool! anyone have the samething? or close to it from childhood abuse.

 

[Keri]

Hi Pete,
This is my first time visiting this site and your's is the first post I've read. I'm sorry to hear about what you went through as a child I can imagine you are left with some pretty big mental/emotional wounds. It sounds like you have every right to be angry about it and you deserve peace in your life. I have dealt with anxiety on and off for about 6 years, it initially started in the form of panic disorder stemming from the fear of being alone and health worries. I'm a Christian as well and have found certain pieces of scripture to help me maintain peace through my fear. Whatever may be bothering you/attacking you when you're alone, try to turn your attention away from it (sounds easier than it is I know). I few verses that help me: 2 corinthians 12: 9-11, 1 John 4:4 & Philippians 4:8. Anxiety is a destroyer of the mind and wants to bring you down. I've struggled for years and still do. I can't tell you how many times I've gone to the hospital thinking I was having a heart attack...and I'm only 29!

 

[ASAPETE]

Hi Pete,
This is my first time visiting this site and your's is the first post I've read. I'm sorry to hear about what you went through as a child I can imagine you are left with some pretty big mental/emotional wounds. It sounds like you have every right to be angry about it and you deserve peace in your life. I have dealt with anxiety on and off for about 6 years, it initially started in the form of panic disorder stemming from the fear of being alone and health worries. I'm a Christian as well and have found certain pieces of scripture to help me maintain peace through my fear. Whatever may be bothering you/attacking you when you're alone, try to turn your attention away from it (sounds easier than it is I know). I few verses that help me: 2 corinthians 12: 9-11, 1 John 4:4 & Philippians 4:8. Anxiety is a destroyer of the mind and wants to bring you down. I've struggled for years and still do. I can't tell you how many times I've gone to the hospital thinking I was having a heart attack...and I'm only 29!

Thank you so much for the Scripture! Ive never went to hospital for it I just feel so unplugged and like Im being lifted up..Im totally not being weird even though it sounds weird I just don't know how to describe it...