I am 32 yrs old and being an caregiver for so long at first I thought I'm doing something pretty selfless but I realised that it was very mentally/emotionally/socially/physically draining and I want to run away from it all but I cannot because I love that person so much but with various health issues going on it gotta take more out of me because that person can relies on me only.
I have gone through various personal tragedies at different stages of my life it had various bad effects on me but I constantly think to my self how can I look after myself let alone another person counting on me.
Am I good enough to do it I am worried I will mess it up. Firstly dealing with all that person's anxieties along with my own anxieties as well will be very tall stressful order to overcome which I can't hope to cross
It been me all this time doing everything to looking after the person to household chores and various errands too I haven't had the time/resources to build up a life for myself which left me with so few social connections and no interests in hobbies or even a job I done courses online to beef up my resume even before the person getting sick I already had issues with my already low self esteem and confidence hoping it get better in the future but crash and burn it did not. I mainly relied on my computer as my only outlet of my anxieties
I have gone through various personal tragedies at different stages of my life it had various bad effects on me but I constantly think to my self how can I look after myself let alone another person counting on me.
Am I good enough to do it I am worried I will mess it up. Firstly dealing with all that person's anxieties along with my own anxieties as well will be very tall stressful order to overcome which I can't hope to cross
It been me all this time doing everything to looking after the person to household chores and various errands too I haven't had the time/resources to build up a life for myself which left me with so few social connections and no interests in hobbies or even a job I done courses online to beef up my resume even before the person getting sick I already had issues with my already low self esteem and confidence hoping it get better in the future but crash and burn it did not. I mainly relied on my computer as my only outlet of my anxieties
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