Hi everyone, I’m new as of today. Sorry if this is long! My health anxiety has gotten the better of me and I thought joining a support forum would help. I’ve been reading other posts and it really has helped. I feel so alone with my health anxiety and no one else understands except the people who actually go through it. My first anxiety attack came after I had my 2nd child. She was 1 and I got sick for 2 months straight. I’m pretty sure it was a re-activation of Epstein Barr virus. Anyway, for no reason at all, I had a major attack waiting for my blood tests to come back. I thought for sure I had either Lymphoma or Leukemia. Finally, after waiting 2 days everything looked fine. Fast forward a year and I was getting multiple sclerosis symptoms. Which seems likely because of the virus I had. I’m still in limbo land with that and I’m ok if that’s what I have. I can live with it. My biggest fear is cancer. Last summer, I had an ovarian cyst. I was certain that is was ovarian cancer. I couldn’t even go to the doctor. After a month of dull pain, I finally went and everything was fine. My symptoms went away that day. I wonder just how powerful our minds are. Around this last Thanksgiving I had major swollen lymph nodes under my chin. I obsessed and obsessed. Emailed my doctor. He said it’s very common with a cold. I was sick so it made sense. He said to come back in 6-8 weeks if they didn’t go down. But my shortness of breath had me googleing lymphoma that spreads ( Dr. Google is evil). All of this has caused major digestive issues. Now I think I have cancer somewhere in my digestive system. That’s all I can focus on. My lymph nodes went way down. I’m happy about that. But I can’t stop thinking about it. And I feel so alone.