Avoided trigger.. still triggered

[Grace360]

So I went back on Tiktok for the first time in a while yesterday. Not avoidance, but I hadn't been feeling well so I was only cycling through a few apps I like. So I get to one and its forensic science or whatever. So obviously a trigger. His head is covering it though, so its like a trigger warning. I was lucky because usually they are inconsiderate. But my dumb self decides to read the comments anyway.. and it might as well have been like seeing it.
It talked about skin mottling and how its an indicator of dying. I don't even know what it looks like and I'm still afraid. Someone compared it to like stretch marks and other things. I basically blew up this past year so I have plenty of those. Gosh I'm so worried now. The curiosity is what got me. I mean my stretch marks, I'm gonna be worrying about those now.

 

[bin_tenn]

Yes, skin mottling is often part of the dying process. No, you're not dying even if you have it. What that means is that, when you're close to death (e.g. late stage terminal illness) things in the body change, including skin mottling. I used to get worried about the "this is what happens near death" stuff, too. But then I realized it doesn't mean what I thought it did. You're fine.

 

[Grace360]

Yes, skin mottling is often part of the dying process. No, you're not dying even if you have it. What that means is that, when you're close to death (e.g. late stage terminal illness) things in the body change, including skin mottling. I used to get worried about the "this is what happens near death" stuff, too. But then I realized it doesn't mean what I thought it did. You're fine.

So my stretch marks don't look like mottling?

 

[cheer_mom]

No! You are okay. I just lost my father in Feb. I watch him go through the changes. I promise you this is NOT what you have. I'm sorry that you struggle with this. I do as well and it is so horrible. Just know we are here to support you and lift each other up.

 

[Iugrad91]

I tell my friends, don’t get your medical information from YouTube, even if it’s a doctor’s video. Same can be said for TikTok or any other social media.

 

[bin_tenn]

So my stretch marks don't look like mottling?

Absolutely not. But like I said, mottling is not inherently bad. It can be very normal, but it's also one characteristic when a person is in the final stages of life ("on the death bed").

 

[bigjetplane6]

Tik Tok was a big trigger for me. That’s why I had to delete it.