Anxiety through roof

[Jaywales]

I feel I am drowning. If being in lockdown wasn't stressful enough yesterday I had a major shouting match in the street with neighbour which I've had ongoing issues with for 2 years which cannot be rectified about excessive noise he was making. I really lost my ****. Wasn't violent or threatening just went into a complete rant with the odd expletive. I now feel super stressed and feel I am unable to cope and now feel worthless and too embarrassed to go out for daily exercise. Last time I felt like this I had a breakdown and I really don't want that to happen again.

 

[Cuchculan]

Nothing to be ashamed about here. We all have the odd shouting match. Used to have a neighbour who played rave music at all hours of the night. I made his life hell. I made his mother's life even worse for not putting a stop to it all. The son finally had enough and moved out. The mother stopped talking to us for years. Not a bother there at all. Thing is we have to say what we have to say at times. So they know how we feel. That same mother is back talking to us. She held her hands up and told us she was in the wrong. It happened as it did. Thing is to now let go. It is over with. Don't hold onto it. You said what you did. Not just breathe. Let it go. Until the next time. Holding onto it will only hurt you. Not the person you were shouting at. Don't let them get you down.

 

[Jaywales]

Nothing to be ashamed about here. We all have the odd shouting match. Used to have a neighbour who played rave music at all hours of the night. I made his life hell. I made his mother's life even worse for not putting a stop to it all. The son finally had enough and moved out. The mother stopped talking to us for years. Not a bother there at all. Thing is we have to say what we have to say at times. So they know how we feel. That same mother is back talking to us. She held her hands up and told us she was in the wrong. It happened as it did. Thing is to now let go. It is over with. Don't hold onto it. You said what you did. Not just breathe. Let it go. Until the next time. Holding onto it will only hurt you. Not the person you were shouting at. Don't let them get you down.

Thank you so much for your response. I know don't feel so alone. I know what you are saying is right it's just hard to compute sometimes. Thank you

 

[Cuchculan]

Let us just say you hate this person. Who feels worse, you or this neighbour? You have this hatred inside of you. So it hurts you only. The neighbour feels nothing at all. Hatred is a waste of time. Only hurts the person hating. That does not mean you have to like them. They exist as they are. Pains. But we say our piece. But let go of all hatred. Don't carry it with you. Or else it will eat away at you from the inside.