Anxiety Sufferer, and Scizo-Affective Person Needing Help

[GNel80]

Hello to all. My name is Greg, age 40. I am almost a life-long anxiety sufferer, among MANY other issues, like depression. Back at age 14, I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, and social anxiety.

I never really go outside, and have only one friend that comes to me. I've been VERY limited in relationships. I have crippling anxiety outside of my home, and sever depression... doing one day after another in identical fashion.

I am on meds, several. Attivan works best for anxiety, but by no means is a cure all.

At the moment, I sit here thinking.... what is life? To suffer?

I try to keep fighting. Its all I have. I'll post more soon, but I hope someone can relate.

Thanks...

Greg

 

[Bobnnat]

Hi Greg,

Welcome! You’ll find this to be a very supporting board. While I’ve never been diagnosed officially at least, with anything other than anxiety (health mainly), I can absolutely relate to you. I am very uncomfortable around people I don’t know, as well as many I do know. Yesterday for me was quite frustrating. My wife had some family and friends over for like 6+ hours. I was on edge the whole time, and retreated to the bedroom for most of the time. Some folks are so loud, and such a mess is created with dishes, drinks, garbage etc.

I though do find some comfort in going out, like for a walk or a drive. I agree about Ativan. It helps but of course it needs to be limited. A total of 10 mg over the course of 14 days is where my doctor draws the line.
Always feel free to reach out on any of the forums here Greg.

Bob

 

[triceps]

Hi and welcome Greg.

Am right there with you having real trouble leaving the house. I'm ok with someone visiting with no notice but agonize if I have any prior notice. My wife's family is very understanding, knowing I won't be joining her for any family events including funerals. Thankfully I'm comfortable going around my 40 acre farm, taking care of some cattle and have plenty of lawn to mow. I try to leave my property at least once a week, helping to keep that option open.

My very best to you along with an acute understanding of what your life sounds like. Can I ask if you are on disability?

 

[GNel80]

Hello to Bob, and triceps! This board does seem like it can be helpful, and I thank both of you for the warm welcome. Its relatable, both of your experiences with others are like myself, and I can relate. I am on disability, yes. Tried working many times, but had to stop, after hearing voices, and getting anxious and paranoid. Luckily, with talk therapy, and meds, psychotic symptoms (voices, delusions) are now at a minimum.

However, I rarely leave my home. If I am with a family member, I can walk around the block once or twice for exercise. I feel anxious and paranoid a great deal of the time.

I am doing good (for me) at the moment, and this venture into a message board is a good next step.

Thank you for your help to both of you. I'll write more soon.

 

[triceps]

I was reasonably functional until I hit my mid-fifties where it seemed like I didn't have as much mental energy to battle my issues. Thankfully I was able to get disability and essentially retire. I hope you can keep doing well (for you) for an extended period.

 

[GNel80]

Thank you triceps! I hope we both do good. Its terrible, dealing with our issues. However, although it is sad, there are others out there like us. Its not so much isolation as it is acceptance. I just wish I could follow my own advice! I know I'm going in circles. Logically, I'm all there. Emotionally? Strained and tired, you know?

 

[Alfonso45]

Sorry if its offensive but, why u dont want leave ur house ar hangout with someones whats ur fear?

 

[imsotired]

hi Greg welcome to the forum!
im so sorry you are experiencing all those issues. I currently suffer with anxiety and it is rlly hard but I got this bookelet that my psychiatrist gave to me. its says that if you have a fear of a situation stay there for 1 hour. I know it seems like a lot but when you are in the situation you can start to feel that the anxiety will get less (not fully gone) but it is a good start and if you keep o doing it you're fear will be reduced until you have no fear at all of that situation. the anxiety always tells u that we are in danger. it is a false alarm

 

[Joshua1]

Hello to all. My name is Greg, age 40. I am almost a life-long anxiety sufferer, among MANY other issues, like depression. Back at age 14, I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, and social anxiety.

I never really go outside, and have only one friend that comes to me. I've been VERY limited in relationships. I have crippling anxiety outside of my home, and sever depression... doing one day after another in identical fashion.

I am on meds, several. Attivan works best for anxiety, but by no means is a cure all.

At the moment, I sit here thinking.... what is life? To suffer?

I try to keep fighting. Its all I have. I'll post more soon, but I hope someone can relate.

Thanks...

Greg

Keep fighting and believing you can change things and take actions on it. Things will change, if your driven and motivated for change.