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Anxiety Relapse

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I have suffered with GAD for over 20yrs. I have been in remission for 4 years after coming off Valium before. So I decided to taper off 7.5mgs Remeron I have taken for many years by cutting in half for 3 weeks then stopped for 12 days and reinstated to 7.5 mgs when I began having withdrawal symptoms. Since then over the last 6 weeks I have had progressively worse physical anxiety symptoms that are getting worse by the week.

I have muscular body aches and skin burning and muscle Ticklishness rotating every day to the point I had to miss a few days of work in the last two weeks. I have had severe depression and emotional lability too at times as symptoms get worse. Out of desperation 5 days ago I took 0.25 Xanax to get through work. The next day I took another 0.25 Xanax. Two days later I saw my psychiatrist and he advised me to temporarily increase my Remeron for 2-3 days and take Xanax as needed to stabilize over the next week. I have since only taken 2 more doses of 0.5 Xanax separated by 2 days. I have now only taken (3) 0.5mg Xanax as of today.

I have tried to will myself to not take them but my body is causing so much pain I am literally in tears and depressed now. I can’t just meditate my way through the pain.

It seems that I am having no choice but to start the Xanax just to survive and get stable. I know it will cause dependence and I suspect I will have to start a low dose Valium regimen to get a stable relief of the pain.

Biologically, I seem to be between a rock and a hard place. If I don’t have relief with a Benzo I won’t be able to function and will be in agony 24/7. If I use a Benzo again I will have to accept a possibly long term dependence.

I tapered off of Valium about 5 years ago for the same problem and it was hell. Ironically, all the severe physical symptoms I have been having now before taking any Benzos feel exactly like the pain I associated with Benzo withdrawal in past years. I did not fully realize that a severe anxiety disorder relapse feels just like Benzo withdrawal.

If this is the case I am suspecting I have no choice but to find a stable dose of Valium just to control my anxiety symptoms to have a decent quality of life.

Anyone’s thoughts would really be appreciated as I feel pretty conflicted and uncertain right now.

Investartist
 
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You might want to check out a website call benzobuddies.org. It’s a group of people in the process of weaning off benzodiazepines. A lot having gone through it and a lot currently going through it. Withdrawal is a very tough thing to go through. You need support. I weaned myself off klonopin about four and a half years ago and off lexapro about four years ago. Both can make you feel your anxiety a lot worse for awhile. If you can stick with it, it does getting easier.
 
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Thanks for the advise and I realize how addictive they are from my own past experience. However I am not currently addicted to a Benzo...yet since I have only taken 3 0.5mg pills in the last 5 days.

Would they be able to help me since I am currently suffering anxiety symptoms with this relapse that are as bad as anyone who is in withdrawal?
 
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Thanks for the advise and I realize how addictive they are from my own past experience. However I am not currently addicted to a Benzo...yet since I have only taken 3 0.5mg pills in the last 5 days.

Would they be able to help me since I am currently suffering anxiety symptoms with this relapse that are as bad as anyone who is in withdrawal?
All I can say is go to the website and have a look around. This is certainly not to say that you shouldn’t stick around here. People on here are VERY helpful. I just thought you were trying to wean off benzos.
 

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Hi Investartist. I went through the withdrawal off Xanax after being on it for over 20 years. It was a long crazy process with many sever withdrawal symptoms. Over the years I've leaned a lot about Xanax and my psychiatrist was involved with the initial trials. He insists that you won't get addicted if your total daily dosage is 1mg or less. Perhaps that information can help your decision making.
 
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