Anxiety is ruining everything

[Ggirlangel93]

Earlier today i had a panic attack. I've been stressing all day about going somewhere with my family and debating if i should go or not. Long story short i just decided it's best to stay home and now that my family is out i feel so sad. I'm sitting here crying in my empty house because once again i let anxiety win. I'm sad that i didn't go, even though i know i would have been anxious being there. Lately i rarely leave my house because i dont feel safe going out. This year i haven't been myself and i dont know how to get out of this funk

 

[Cuchculan]

With anxiety we all find ourselves not doing a lot of things we would love to do. Things that seem so simple to other people. But to us they are a challenge. That might include going out with family members. I have done it all over the years. Missed everything that was going on. Be it a party or a wedding or even a funeral. Once they know your reasons for missing these things it can make it a lot easier. Yes, we would love to be there. Having fun. Enjoying the day / night. But right now it is something we can't manage. That is not saying that will always be the case. I mentioned even missing funerals. I was at one last Saturday. Think I surprised people by showing up. They were simply not used to seeing me at such things. Meeting relatives I had not seen in years. Today you didn't go with your family. That won't always have to be the case. It depends on how we are feeling on any given day. That is just our anxious ways. We miss out on so much. Can make us sad at times. Been all alone or feeling that way. I simply find things to do. Take my mind off of things. My family know my ways. They don't expect much of me. Which helps me a lot. So much so that at times I turn up at things. Because there is no pressure on me to be there. So chin up. Big smile. You are having a bit of a tough time of things right now. That can and will change. Never stop believing.

 

[Ggirlangel93]

With anxiety we all find ourselves not doing a lot of things we would love to do. Things that seem so simple to other people. But to us they are a challenge. That might include going out with family members. I have done it all over the years. Missed everything that was going on. Be it a party or a wedding or even a funeral. Once they know your reasons for missing these things it can make it a lot easier. Yes, we would love to be there. Having fun. Enjoying the day / night. But right now it is something we can't manage. That is not saying that will always be the case. I mentioned even missing funerals. I was at one last Saturday. Think I surprised people by showing up. They were simply not used to seeing me at such things. Meeting relatives I had not seen in years. Today you didn't go with your family. That won't always have to be the case. It depends on how we are feeling on any given day. That is just our anxious ways. We miss out on so much. Can make us sad at times. Been all alone or feeling that way. I simply find things to do. Take my mind off of things. My family know my ways. They don't expect much of me. Which helps me a lot. So much so that at times I turn up at things. Because there is no pressure on me to be there. So chin up. Big smile. You are having a bit of a tough time of things right now. That can and will change. Never stop believing.

I really appreciate this message. Thank you for writing that. It helps knowing there are others feeling the same way i do