Anxiety at Work

[sleepy]

Hey, I’m new here. Just wanted a place to join a group of people who understood and appreciated current struggles I’m battling.

Recently I have felt very under attack at work - I often get shouted at for things I’m “doing wrong” (mostly things that are out of my control or genuinely aren’t my fault).

Worst thing is that I get shouted at in front of all my colleagues which is humiliating af. I also work my arse off, and work overtime to get things done - which feels completely under appreciated. When I get yelled at, I have to walk myself over to the toilet to have a little cry/panic attack- it takes very little to trigger that happening now, as I feel like I’ve been picked on/getting the brunt at work every day for the last couple of months. I then have to return to my desk all puffy eyed, pretending everything is okay.

Last Tuesday I got shouted at again for something that was not my fault, and I began uncontrollably shaking - my body went into complete shock. I then walked to the toilets to cry, I had a panic attack and ended up throwing up. I was still sniffling and frantically shaking as I came back into the office, which meant I ended up in the meeting room with my boss/CEO.

I was signed off for the whole week, and I’m meant to be back in on Monday (aaAAaAhhh!)

I’m now anxious about everything surrounding this fiasco: going back into work on Monday, will I be able to keep my cool? How long will it take me to find a job? How can I subtly go to interviews? Am I going to get fired before I find a new job? Does everyone hate me in the office now? Does this mean I’m weak?

 

[cheer_mom]

You should try to see a psychologist. It has helped me so much. Look up Cognitive Behavioral therapy. It is a great starting point.

 

[sleepy]

You should try to see a psychologist. It has helped me so much. Look up Cognitive Behavioral therapy. It is a great starting point.

Hey, thank you. Yeah, I did years of CBT and since Tuesday have signed up for another course of CBT with a different company/therapist. It’s so great you felt it helped, it’s great isn’t it? I’m also on 50mg of Citalopram - I’m feeling a little at a dead end of what I can do next haha.

 

[cheer_mom]

My Dr just upped me to 40mg celexa and I don't feel like it has helped. The atavan helps rest my mind enough to sleep but I don't like to take it because it's habit forming. I only take 0.5 as needed.

 

[chiliphil1]

My first piece of advice is to quit this job. There is no job in the world worth dealing with mental health issues because of it. My first bout with anxiety came about because of a stressful job, sounds just like what you’re dealing with (minus the yelling) there is never an excuse to be yelled at at work. Personally, I feel that I would have snapped back, you certainly have more control than I.

You have to put yourself first here, jobs are plentiful and if you’re being abused where you are then you need to get out. Is there anyone you can voice your concerns with, HR department or anything like that? What you’re dealing with just isn’t right.

 

[Wandering123]

My first piece of advice is to quit this job. There is no job in the world worth dealing with mental health issues because of it. My first bout with anxiety came about because of a stressful job, sounds just like what you’re dealing with (minus the yelling) there is never an excuse to be yelled at at work. Personally, I feel that I would have snapped back, you certainly have more control than I.

You have to put yourself first here, jobs are plentiful and if you’re being abused where you are then you need to get out. Is there anyone you can voice your concerns with, HR department or anything like that? What you’re dealing with just isn’t right.

I second this. In fact I resigned my job a week ago with 2 weeks notice and they told me my last day was Friday. The place was horrible and I was physically ill in the morning before I left for work. I didn't have a job lined up but I don't care. I can find something else and nothing is worth losing your mind over it. If you feel you can't leave then start sending out resumes. Schedule phone interviews in your lunch or after work. If you they ask you to come in schedule first in the morning or late in the afternoon so you can leave. Say you have a doctor appointment. I've done all of this. It sucks because you're trying to be discreet but in the end you need to take care of yourself. Good luck.

 

[Trying123]

Hi sleepy,
Sorry that you are in this bad situation. You have to put yourself and wellbeing first. You deserve to be treated with dignity and respect at all times. I am also working in a toxic work environment and have been considering my options.