Am I the only one that gets really anxious at school?
Maybe is a dumb question, but school really makes me anxious in all the ways, like the social side and the work side, I go to this high school without a scholarship because my parents can afford it, but I remember the exact feeling I had when I was enrolling and I saw the price that my parents where paying, I am not the most hard working student, my average final grades are from 87 to 90, so to see they were paying this high price just for me, I felt and sometimes I still feel like I don't deserve it at all.
Then there is the social side, I used to study in a catholic school for only girls, and to change to a school with both boys and girls with no social skills whatsoever and old friends that aren't even my friends to be by my side, I struggle to this day to maintain friendships, but that is not the point. Sometimes I can't even look up while walking the halls of school, I have this thing that people I don't know I can't talk look to their eyes
One wrong word to somebody and these intrusive thoughts came, one wrong grade and I start to feel bad even when my parents told me to just be better next time and it isn't that big of a deal, but they don't know how guilty I am to make them waste they're money like that on me, most of my friends had to enter the school by scholarship and I just feel unworthy of what I have and what I was born with, I'm not rich or anything but I have a good life, a good life that I feel I don't even deserve
So, asking again, am I the only one that gets really anxious at school?
Maybe is a dumb question, but school really makes me anxious in all the ways, like the social side and the work side, I go to this high school without a scholarship because my parents can afford it, but I remember the exact feeling I had when I was enrolling and I saw the price that my parents where paying, I am not the most hard working student, my average final grades are from 87 to 90, so to see they were paying this high price just for me, I felt and sometimes I still feel like I don't deserve it at all.
Then there is the social side, I used to study in a catholic school for only girls, and to change to a school with both boys and girls with no social skills whatsoever and old friends that aren't even my friends to be by my side, I struggle to this day to maintain friendships, but that is not the point. Sometimes I can't even look up while walking the halls of school, I have this thing that people I don't know I can't talk look to their eyes
One wrong word to somebody and these intrusive thoughts came, one wrong grade and I start to feel bad even when my parents told me to just be better next time and it isn't that big of a deal, but they don't know how guilty I am to make them waste they're money like that on me, most of my friends had to enter the school by scholarship and I just feel unworthy of what I have and what I was born with, I'm not rich or anything but I have a good life, a good life that I feel I don't even deserve
So, asking again, am I the only one that gets really anxious at school?
