Recently my boyfriend and I decided to take our relationship to the next level. We've been dating for just over a year but half of the year was spent as a long-distance relationship. Finally, after a year of waiting, we both decided the time was right. Because of my anxiety we had planned months ahead, I started my first batch of birth control, he got checked out, I got checked out and the day before we both went out to buy condoms together.
We ended up doing it safely, he had a condom and I had birth control. But the anxiety persisted, as irrational as it is, I'm sitting at my computer at 3 am again trying to convince myself that there's no way I can be pregnant. I'm not sure if this is a usual thing, none of my friends have ever had sex before and they're against it. Since I'm 17 I don't think its right to ask my parents any questions since I'll probably worry them over nothing.
I haven't been able to sleep properly for two weeks now, I try to lay down and fall asleep but the thoughts keep coming up.
I'm not sure what I'm expecting out of this post. I just need to express my feelings to somebody and maybe find some solutions.
We ended up doing it safely, he had a condom and I had birth control. But the anxiety persisted, as irrational as it is, I'm sitting at my computer at 3 am again trying to convince myself that there's no way I can be pregnant. I'm not sure if this is a usual thing, none of my friends have ever had sex before and they're against it. Since I'm 17 I don't think its right to ask my parents any questions since I'll probably worry them over nothing.
I haven't been able to sleep properly for two weeks now, I try to lay down and fall asleep but the thoughts keep coming up.
I'm not sure what I'm expecting out of this post. I just need to express my feelings to somebody and maybe find some solutions.
