Anxiety about feeling good

[Kimberly Hunt]

I talked about it, to everyone. I talk all the time and I talk to people about all sorts of stuff, because when my mind is thinking of something else, I don't have the anxiety so bad and all is right. It is extremely frustrating!

 

[Peanutbuttercup]

What do you do? Go out every night? Or do you call them or what?

 

[Kimberly Hunt]

I tell my family about how I am feeling, even though they always think I am going to be okay and it seems like it is no big deal. I don't care, I tell them anyway and luckily they listen and give advice. My sister is the best at it. I also tell my co-workers or boss. I really don't care who knows, I am suffering and I want people to help as much as they can. if they think I am weird, I don't care. You can't get help or advice unless you ask for it, because for many of us this a silent disorder. I refuse to be silent.

 

[Kimberly Hunt]

What do you do? Go out every night? Or do you call them or what?

I tell my friends too. I have used the terminology of being in world war stages like, okay, I am at defcon 4. Let's team up and bring me down!

 

[Peanutbuttercup]

Wow that’s a good idea. Have you figured out what brings you down?

 

[Kimberly Hunt]

Yes, and it is mostly when i am focused on something else. I mean I still feel like the residual effects of having the bad anxiety but me focusing on something or talking to someone helps even more. And it doesn't matter what I am talking about it just makes me think of something else. There are times also where I panic or have really heightened anxiety that my body is like, okay Im done and the calm sets in.

 

[Peanutbuttercup]

I haven’t had any anxiety today but really depressed. Sometimes you can’t win for losing. what about exercise? How does that treat you?

 

[Peanutbuttercup]

Btw, I really appreciate our conversations. Thanks.

 

[Kimberly Hunt]

You're welcome. I enjoy talking to you. It helps with the understanding side of things and anything I can learn to help me I am all for! I do not exercise like i should, plus i have weight that needs to be gone outside of doing it to lower my anxiety. It's weird though, the same feeling I get when I do exercise is what I have when I experience a panic attack. However, there is way more calm in the exercise after and I guess that is where the endorphins come in to play. So do you work or go to school? Is it just you or do you have a family?

 

[janemariesayed]

Thanks for indulging this. I think it will help me.

You remember what normal/good is. Your brain’s neural pathways are still there and still in tact. Your brain, just like your body, has an enormous ability to heal, and it will because you will put the time and energy into doing the right things to get there. This is only a minor blip on the radar.

My next one is... what if I can’t stop thinking about it?

To stop thinking about something takes great willpower. The mind does not have a will of its own. Its will is your will but it is like an untrained child. Meditation on counting breaths helps to clear the mind of thoughts, thus having control over them.

 

[Peanutbuttercup]

Yes I have a family and I am the primary breadwinner; so not working isn’t an option. I’ve been on vacation for 2 weeks, but I go back this Friday. I exercised regularly before this all started; then fell off. I’m trying to get back into it now. I’ve just started yoga. I’ve only done it once, but it was relaxing.

How’s your day been today?

 

[Kimberly Hunt]

Yes I have a family and I am the primary breadwinner; so not working isn’t an option. I’ve been on vacation for 2 weeks, but I go back this Friday. I exercised regularly before this all started; then fell off. I’m trying to get back into it now. I’ve just started yoga. I’ve only done it once, but it was relaxing.

How’s your day been today?

I had a bad day actually. Had a lot of anxiety. I just went into a tailspin of all these thoughts... like I’m never going to feel normal again, I can’t stop this anxiety, I was overly scared for some reason. I feel a lot better now but it is so exhausting. How do people live like this for so long? On a positive note...thanks for asking! So was there anything that you were going through to lead up to your increase of anxiety? Do you have a support system you rely on outside of here?

 

[Peanutbuttercup]

Yes I have a great family. Some know about it and some don’t. I think it is tough for someone who hasn’t gone through it to understand thgough.

Didn’t you just tell me that you had a change in your medicine? Are you sure your not going through first weeks side effect of the increase?

 

[Kimberly Hunt]

Yes I have a great family. Some know about it and some don’t. I think it is tough for someone who hasn’t gone through it to understand thgough.

Didn’t you just tell me that you had a change in your medicine? Are you sure your not going through first weeks side effect of the increase?

You could be absolutely right and I have actually thought about that. It is possible.
Is there a way talk privately on here?

 

[Nat_tat]

Oh my, I experience the same feeling. Try to live in the moment and enjoy things as they happen

 

[Kimberly Hunt]

Honestly, I find my self questioning my feelings. Like I see life differently and I don't know if that is the anxiety or me being aware of existing. It is really weird to me. I even get a physical sensation when I see things and Im not sure if it is the thought that starts my anxiety or what. I feel somewhat off all the time. I am hoping things change and I start to feel mostly normal again.

 

[Cirqueme]

Sometimes I have anxiety because I'm feeling OK and know that the anxiety is gonna hit even harder and blindside me and be even more of a dramatic change in the way I feel. Its almost as if u wanna stay anxious as a defense mechanism. ...smh. like you don't wanna fall from a higher height. Why can't people come down with extreme happiness peace and contentment instead of this negativity? In the name of Jesus christ I will prevail though!

More than annoying. I swear I think we have the exact same days. Mine is tightness in my back and chest that proceeds to a headache.

Take deep breaths, practice mindfulness, etc etc.

What did you do?

Sometimes I have anxiety because I'm feeling OK and know that the anxiety is gonna hit even harder and blindside me and be even more of a dramatic change in the way I feel. Its almost as if u wanna stay anxious as a defense mechanism. ...smh. like you don't wanna fall from a higher height. Why can't people come down with extreme happiness peace and contentment instead of this negativity? In the name of Jesus christ I will prevail though!

 

[Cirqueme]

I thought I was the only one that felt this way.....I'm 25 and have been in anxiety for over a year...this is the first time I've been in anxiety and it's the worst thing in the world...I'm trying to get out of it..it's a beast!