Angry as hell

[XmasCarol52]

I dont know why but I am angry and mad as hell,every little darn thing I have to worry about and it causes me to yell.I am so angry right now I am yelling so bad it is coming from my throat I have totally had it with stupid websites that dont know what they are doing and people too.I could care less about Christmas,aI just wish i could fall asleep and not wake up.I could care less tomorrow is my birthday.My life f sucks. I wish I was never born.

 

[janemariesayed]

I dont know why but I am angry and mad as hell,every little darn thing I have to worry about and it causes me to yell.I am so angry right now I am yelling so bad it is coming from my throat I have totally had it with stupid websites that dont know what they are doing and people too.I could care less about Christmas,aI just wish i could fall asleep and not wake up.I could care less tomorrow is my birthday.My life f sucks. I wish I was never born.

So sorry you are feeling this way Carol. If it is any consolation, I am sure glad that you were born. Only because I was born too, and had you of not been born, we would never have met, and you have been a tower of strength for me. Thank you for that. x

 

[XmasCarol52]

Thank you for your kind words I am so f fed up I had totally had it.

 

[janemariesayed]

Thank you for your kind words I am so f fed up I had totally had it.

You are welcome to kind words Carol because you are a lovely person. You have really helped me since we met on here so I really do hope you start to feel better soon.

 

[XmasCarol52]

You are welcome to kind words Carol because you are a lovely person. You have really helped me since we met on here so I really do hope you start to feel better soon.

Maybe after the holidays I will feel better.My friend brought me two Christmas coloring books so when I lay down i can do some drawing.You are a kind and loving person yourself,i love talking to all of you.

 

[janemariesayed]

Maybe after the holidays I will feel better.My friend brought me two Christmas coloring books so when I lay down i can do some drawing.You are a kind and loving person yourself,i love talking to all of you.

Colouring books are a brilliant idea. I have a few of them and they really do help to relax the mind. I hope they help you to forget your pains.

 

[Concernedgal]

I dont know why but I am angry and mad as hell,every little darn thing I have to worry about and it causes me to yell.I am so angry right now I am yelling so bad it is coming from my throat I have totally had it with stupid websites that dont know what they are doing and people too.I could care less about Christmas,aI just wish i could fall asleep and not wake up.I could care less tomorrow is my birthday.My life f sucks. I wish I was never born.

Life is making us angry. We live this life of being on edge constantly and doctors don't give a flying **** about us. Come in they say,give us money they say, do more for us you ass holes besides shoving anti depressants down our throats. That's why we are mad,we are mad because unless your like all of us andyou get it...you don't give a ****about us.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Life is making us angry. We live this life of being on edge constantly and doctors don't give a flying **** about us. Come in they say,give us money they say, do more for us you ass holes besides shoving anti depressants down our throats. That's why we are mad,we are mad because unless your like all of us andyou get it...you don't give a ****about us.

I am tired of telling these doctors that the depakote is not working it didnt work some twenty years ago and it isnt working now.I think the doctors have there heads burried way up inside there arse it is effecting there brains.

 

[Concernedgal]

I feel the same. It's the same with zoloft. ..they keep trying to talk me into trying again and I can't tell them enough to back off. .! I don't want it,the shut is useless to me. Stop it already. ..I SAID NO.!!! You know what i'my saying?

 

[XmasCarol52]

I know and sometimes I wonder where these doctors get there brains from.Why wont they listen and i get sick and tired of telling them how my agoraphobia keeps me from going to see them and they still wont help you.It isnt always and option for us to be able to go out.

 

[janemariesayed]

Thankfully we don't have to cough up money for medical care if we go with the NHS. It means though that we have long waiting lists to get to see a doctor or treatment sometimes.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Thankfully we don't have to cough up money for medical care if we go with the NHS. It means though that we have long waiting lists to get to see a doctor or treatment sometimes.

Something just happened the biggest fear I had came to life,I have no heat so i called the land lady she said they have heates i knew something was wrong when it was over an hour and no heat and the temp is dropping,they better show up i lost my temper everyone keeps losing there heat the last time it took them three weeks to fix it,gd it if anything else happens i am going to scream.i hope they show up soon because i am cold,she told me they have heaters ya but you cant run them all day,why me that is what i want to know,this is bs. see what i mean nothing is going right for me,i knew something was wrong because i didnt feel the heat much, this is nonsense.

 

[janemariesayed]

Something just happened the biggest fear I had came to life,I have no heat so i called the land lady she said they have heates i knew something was wrong when it was over an hour and no heat and the temp is dropping,they better show up i lost my temper everyone keeps losing there heat the last time it took them three weeks to fix it,gd it if anything else happens i am going to scream.i hope they show up soon because i am cold,she told me they have heaters ya but you cant run them all day,why me that is what i want to know,this is bs. see what i mean nothing is going right for me,i knew something was wrong because i didnt feel the heat much, this is nonsense.

Oh dear Carol, that doesn't sound too good! Me too! I don't have any heating until this Wednesday because I don't have the cash to put any gas on the card. Here is what I am doing and I am warm as toast right now, even though it is white with snow and ice outside.

I wrap myself up, hun! Right now, I've got fleecy pj's on, a fleecy onesie, a fleecy scarf wrapped around my neck, a lined bobble hat and thick socks with fleecy boot style slippers. If it gets colder, I will also sit wrapped up in a blanket as well. Thankfully nobody can see me! LOL

Don't let it get to you, but do go and wrap yourself up with multiple layers of your warmest clothing and sip hot drinks.
People die from the cold so go and wrap yourself up in a blanket, a duvet or whatever you can. I hope your heating gets put back on really soon.

 

[XmasCarol52]

The loaned me heater can u get one of those?It did come back on about 11this morning been running ever since,Thank GOd for that .To bad I could make you a fleece blanket.I am making things for cancer patients next year,yes even babies I just love kids and babies.I got to see my two grandchildren they came to open up there gifts.I got a 30 dollar gift card from walmart i already spent it,some cookies,and a nice picture calender with my kids and grandchildren pix on them.My mom gave to 100 dollars 50 for my birthday and 50 for christmas I will put it away so i can use it for a couch.My mom said something about maybe helping me with it.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Can you believe that stupid bitch of a land lady didnt like the message i left her and handy man he went and played the message i sent she said it was kind of nasty oh really what does she expect my heat went out at 6am all i said to him was and yes i was mad that he better come and fiv this thing because I am not going to sit around here in the cold,she took offense to it she wanted me to apolofize to him even though she just said she knows i get anxious when something happens i am not going to apologize to her for having anxieties and him all i said to him was i was not taking it out on you just that i was so frustrated see around here you aren't allowed to say things you have to be good 100 percent well to friggen bad i told him that because i heard someone lsot heat for three weeks i didn't let them on that i knew that because i am not suppose to say anything but two other people had furnace issues too.That stupid bastard goes and tells darlene everything i was so pissed off.She had no right to listen to my message.I don't trust the handy man as far as you can throw him don't ever tell me i need to apologize because of having anxieties,that is bs. She expects me to kiss her ass,no way will i ever do that she thinks she can walk all over me just because of my mental illness well she has another thing coming .i am always polite to her and the handy man for him to pull this it is not acceptable.She just doesnt get it that anxieties can make you angry too,so screw her and him.She wants me to feel guilty but guess what I am not it is my illness and if she cannot get it by now she should go and read up on it.

 

[janemariesayed]

The loaned me heater can u get one of those?It did come back on about 11this morning been running ever since,Thank GOd for that .To bad I could make you a fleece blanket.I am making things for cancer patients next year,yes even babies I just love kids and babies.I got to see my two grandchildren they came to open up there gifts.I got a 30 dollar gift card from walmart i already spent it,some cookies,and a nice picture calender with my kids and grandchildren pix on them.My mom gave to 100 dollars 50 for my birthday and 50 for christmas I will put it away so i can use it for a couch.My mom said something about maybe helping me with it.

Thank the Gods that you have heating now. I was a bit concerned there for a while. Don't worry about apologising Carol. People don't often apologise for being sick! At least they are not normally expected to.

 

[XmasCarol52]

Not with her she is nothing but a big bully

 

[Concernedgal]

I agree with Jane here carol...being sick gives you a license to be a little crabby. Lol

 

[XmasCarol52]

I agree with Jane here carol...being sick gives you a license to be a little crabby. Lol

so true.but since when do we have to say sorry from having anxieties?She should know better,oh ya Happy New Year to all of you here,Actually I could care less it is just another day to me.

 

[Concernedgal]

I didn't celebrate new years either.