WetheNorth95
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Hi all,
So this is my first ever post on here. I am in my early 20s and have been diagnosed with social and GAD and depression. While my diagnosis was 4 years ago, I know that I have been struggling since I was a kid. I have early memories of the physical symptoms I would get when I had to go to play dates which are the same ones that I get today when I feel anxious or have a panic attack (upset stomach, clammy hands, kind of blacking out/vision fading, etc.). I have been to therapy (one on one and group), never tried medication and I'm hesitant due to side effects I've read about, but I am open to trying it if needs be.
I guess what made me join here is the anxiety I have been having over the job hunt. I just graduated university, and looking at job posts makes me so anxious I can only scroll for about 5 minutes and I need to stop. I panic and feel like I'm not good enough for any of the jobs. I am anxious over not finding a job, but even more anxious about getting a job, and fear not being good enough and failing and letting people down. Anxiety is holding me back, and I know therapy might help me again, but I'd feel like a failure if I had to go back to get more help.
On top of this, I also struggle with depression- sometimes my anxiety is so bad that I think not being around would be better than the job hunt or continuing to have these feelings of no confidence in myself. I just can't handle it. Side note- does anyone else's depression worsen during their time of the month? Sorry if that's TMI but I find that's the case with me.
Anxiety has held me back in other areas of my life including relationships and intimacy (which maybe I'll get into one day but for now it makes me so anxious even thinking about it that I can't open up just yet, but I thought it might be easier online than in person). I struggle with incessant worrying (about my dog and family getting older and dying, health issues, etc.).
On a positive note, I am proud of myself, as recently I just returned from a trip overseas and while I did have anxiety, I was able to make it through and enjoy my time.
I use ASMR, square/deep breathing and thought records to cope, but I find they haven't been as effective as of recent.
Anyways, that's all for now. If anyone had any thoughts or advice or similar experiences regarding not feeling good enough or struggles with the job hunt, it would be greatly appreciated.
So this is my first ever post on here. I am in my early 20s and have been diagnosed with social and GAD and depression. While my diagnosis was 4 years ago, I know that I have been struggling since I was a kid. I have early memories of the physical symptoms I would get when I had to go to play dates which are the same ones that I get today when I feel anxious or have a panic attack (upset stomach, clammy hands, kind of blacking out/vision fading, etc.). I have been to therapy (one on one and group), never tried medication and I'm hesitant due to side effects I've read about, but I am open to trying it if needs be.
I guess what made me join here is the anxiety I have been having over the job hunt. I just graduated university, and looking at job posts makes me so anxious I can only scroll for about 5 minutes and I need to stop. I panic and feel like I'm not good enough for any of the jobs. I am anxious over not finding a job, but even more anxious about getting a job, and fear not being good enough and failing and letting people down. Anxiety is holding me back, and I know therapy might help me again, but I'd feel like a failure if I had to go back to get more help.
On top of this, I also struggle with depression- sometimes my anxiety is so bad that I think not being around would be better than the job hunt or continuing to have these feelings of no confidence in myself. I just can't handle it. Side note- does anyone else's depression worsen during their time of the month? Sorry if that's TMI but I find that's the case with me.
Anxiety has held me back in other areas of my life including relationships and intimacy (which maybe I'll get into one day but for now it makes me so anxious even thinking about it that I can't open up just yet, but I thought it might be easier online than in person). I struggle with incessant worrying (about my dog and family getting older and dying, health issues, etc.).
On a positive note, I am proud of myself, as recently I just returned from a trip overseas and while I did have anxiety, I was able to make it through and enjoy my time.
I use ASMR, square/deep breathing and thought records to cope, but I find they haven't been as effective as of recent.
Anyways, that's all for now. If anyone had any thoughts or advice or similar experiences regarding not feeling good enough or struggles with the job hunt, it would be greatly appreciated.