Alone and scared.

[Jessco11]

Hey guys,

So I've had a lot of good days recently. But I'm having a moment right now (probably having a heart attach- who knows lol).

I hate being alone.... when my husband leaves, I feel so helpless sometimes- not every time- just sometimes. I just want to be brave again because he has started to notice. He even asked me if I don't want him to have friends because "[I am] fine until [he] leaves".

I wish there was a way I could show him my thoughts. When he is here, I still get the anxiety but I feel safe knowing that he is there to take care of our daughter and call 911 if I dropped dead of my daily heart attack/lung collapse/brain aneurism scares. But the minute he leaves, I worry for her and I fear my death with no one to call for help. It gets so bad that I need to ask him to come home on occasion. But i am not a jealous person, in fact, I am so glad he has friends here now (we moved here a couple of years ago). I just can't shake this fear of dying when I should be keeping my little girl safe.


Anyone else going through something like this? Am I alone in this too?

 

[Mandyhiero]

I’ve been there. I hate it for you because I’ve felt the way you’re feeling so many times and it’s awful and scary. I don’t have much to offer by way of advice because to be honest, I still have days like that. Just know you aren’t alone in the way you feel.

 

[Jessco11]

I’ve been there. I hate it for you because I’ve felt the way you’re feeling so many times and it’s awful and scary. I don’t have much to offer by way of advice because to be honest, I still have days like that. Just know you aren’t alone in the way you feel.

That does make me feel better- thank you for your kind words. Here's to hoping it goes away soon.