It doesn’t stack up not to open them, I know. But a few other GAD people face this issue, too. I know because I read about them a while back after I’d suffered prolonged consequences and wanted to find out if anyone else illogically behaves this way. I’ve reverted back to this after having recently faced one too many disappointments / betrayals precipitated out in the midst of several other ‘ugly’ situations of life I’m already enduring alone (eg. unpaid salary again, deception, withdrawn offers, lies, unanswered emails). I’m also a victim of minor crimes but there is acknowledged corruption all around, so dealing, if at all, with it isn't a straightforward matter, I was valiantly trying to change my life for the better in the face of diminishing options. It’s not easy living alone for years in a foreign non-English speaking country without family or friends around, having almost nil social life, unable to speak the lingo and where a visit to a doctor ends with only another prescription of drugs and almost no, if any, advice. I’m tired of all the ugly unexpected turns of events and long to be among positive understanding people for a change. Yes, it makes no sense that I keep telling myself every day ‘I’ll open the emails tomorrow’, look at my bank account, messages, etc or deal with other similar ‘must do’ tasks but don’t. But it’s like ‘why do some people do physical self-harm?’ Something else is going on. My slide back into more pronounced GAD behaviour only makes life more difficult for me, not for anyone else, but what could I do to quickly move on this time?
Alas, the emails and other accounts
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