Afraid that when things are going well something bad is about to happen

[mollyfin]

Anyone else feel like this? I'm at the point where I can't enjoy anything because I feel like anything that makes me happy will be followed by something horrible.

 

[ThankfulJen]

Yes. And the feeling follows me. Try to distract. Try to ignore. Hate it.

 

[Cuchculan]

That is normal. Why? Because people are used to feeling a certain way. If they don't feel that way, they think there must be something wrong. A lot of the time they actually go looking for anything that will make then feel as they are used to feeling. But we have to accept that we are allowed to have good days as well. They do happen.

 

[Matticus1983]

Anyone else feel like this? I'm at the point where I can't enjoy anything because I feel like anything that makes me happy will be followed by something horrible.

It's (self sabotage). We are so used to our behavior over years (even though it's not realized) that anything good doesn't feel, quite right. There are times everything feels absolutely fine and dandy then I sabotage myself, because I'm not used to letting myself go. Acceptance goes a long way in recovering from anxiety. Accept your thoughts and feelings as nothing more than thoughts and feelings. They'll eventually leave you alone until you self forget. Our memories are programmed for us to remember everytime we've failed, or have felt bad. That sabotages the good. Take care. We know how you feel. Don't fight it and live it. Best advice I can give.

 

[Daisymae]

Yep, every time I feel good I think my body is shutting down.

 

[mollyfin]

It's kind of pathetic; people are just being really nice to me for no real reason at all, and I'm like "oh this must be what comes before my terminal diagnosis." (...I mean it can't be that they're just treating me the way I treat them, right?? My friends are great, why would this mean anything sinister??) Like...it's so annoying. It's happened in my life that whenever things go in the way that leave me pleasantly surprised, something awful comes right after. I imagine that's happened to everyone over their lives. But for a period of time that felt constant, and I've never gotten over it.

Maybe partly it's because I wanted to be a writer when I was much younger and that's such a common thing in books, especially books for young readers. Everything is going great...until everything goes horribly wrong. I know that actual life is just random, but for some reason I can't accept it on a level that makes me not feel like this.

 

[Aries]

I get that all the time. It's like Rimmer in the Better Than Life episode of Red Dwarf. He finds himself buried up to his neck about to be eaten by ants.

 

[Camden]

Yes, I understand that feeling. The skeptical feeling that things are "Going too well."

I'm having this feeling in an awesome new job I just began. Sometimes I'll wonder when the first disaster is going to happen to me on this job? I also get paranoid that after each really good day, it will be followed by a crappy day. I've had many great days thus far and I'm scared of the day I have my first screw-up on the job.