Afraid of STD/HIV

[plaguedwanxiety]

Hi everyone. For the past 7 weeks I haven't been myself at all. I had a sexual encounter , it was unprotected oral sex and protected vaginal. Well about 4 days after I saw a flat brown spot on the head of my penis it freaked me out. At first I thought herpes, I went to the doctor got it looked at and the doctor said it didn't look like much maybe hpv but to early to tell. I got full std blood screening everything came back negative. Then I went online started googling stuff and pretty much convinced myself I had HIV. I saw that the time I took the test was to soon after exposure to be accurate so I had very bad anxiety. I re took the HIV test at 31 days and it came back negative. I was relieved for a few days but once again I googled and it made me think of all the what ifs. I even went to a dermatologist to have the brown spot checked out and he said it was nothing to worry about. But here I am still worrying. I don't know if anyone has gone through this or has any advice on what I should do but anything will help.

 

[Kelculator]

The good old "what if" disaster. I feel you! I know that you are in a stage of panic, so it's hard to see that you are actually fine. In my perspective, you are healthy, and there is nothing to worry about.
Many times, anxiety causes you to remain scared with the "what if"s even though there are proof that you are okay. I often tell myself that emotions are just emotions, and what I feel does not equal to what is going on. I may feel like I am dying, but in reality there is no proof. This is anxiety playing tricks on you. I hope you feel better soon!

 

[janemariesayed]

Hi everyone. For the past 7 weeks I haven't been myself at all. I had a sexual encounter , it was unprotected oral sex and protected vaginal. Well about 4 days after I saw a flat brown spot on the head of my penis it freaked me out. At first I thought herpes, I went to the doctor got it looked at and the doctor said it didn't look like much maybe hpv but to early to tell. I got full std blood screening everything came back negative. Then I went online started googling stuff and pretty much convinced myself I had HIV. I saw that the time I took the test was to soon after exposure to be accurate so I had very bad anxiety. I re took the HIV test at 31 days and it came back negative. I was relieved for a few days but once again I googled and it made me think of all the what ifs. I even went to a dermatologist to have the brown spot checked out and he said it was nothing to worry about. But here I am still worrying. I don't know if anyone has gone through this or has any advice on what I should do but anything will help.

We can get spots on any place of our bodies and our privates are no different. It sounds like you have nothing to worry about. I suggest bathing it and making sure it is kept dry. It will go away by itself but I don't think it would hurt to put a cream on it like germolene or savlon.