A..N..X..I..E..T...Y

[2ndtime_around]

Anxiety ….. I will never understand why you exist

I got my final test from the doctors and as usual everything was good I'm so grateful for the good health. But I'm so sick of feeling this way, I feel so bad like something is wrong is scary and it effects my everyday life. As this is my second battle with this , I don't know which was worst the first time or this time I do know that's its very debilitating and I feel so lost like no hope , I feel off balance , not like myself , unable to drive far , fear , I just wish it all goes away . I have no energy , its too much.

therapy , reading , etc. its been 1 year and 4 months …. last time it took 2 years before if went completely away hope that's not the same case now

 

[Jmtk]

Anxiety ….. I will never understand why you exist

I got my final test from the doctors and as usual everything was good I'm so grateful for the good health. But I'm so sick of feeling this way, I feel so bad like something is wrong is scary and it effects my everyday life. As this is my second battle with this , I don't know which was worst the first time or this time I do know that's its very debilitating and I feel so lost like no hope , I feel off balance , not like myself , unable to drive far , fear , I just wish it all goes away . I have no energy , its too much.

therapy , reading , etc. its been 1 year and 4 months …. last time it took 2 years before if went completely away hope that's not the same case now

How did it go away.? I hate it so much

 

[suzzeeb]

Anxiety ….. I will never understand why you exist

I got my final test from the doctors and as usual everything was good I'm so grateful for the good health. But I'm so sick of feeling this way, I feel so bad like something is wrong is scary and it effects my everyday life. As this is my second battle with this , I don't know which was worst the first time or this time I do know that's its very debilitating and I feel so lost like no hope , I feel off balance , not like myself , unable to drive far , fear , I just wish it all goes away . I have no energy , its too much.

therapy , reading , etc. its been 1 year and 4 months …. last time it took 2 years before if went completely away hope that's not the same case now

Yes same here. My first time took probably close to 2 1/2 years. This episode, though better than it was 6 months ago, has lasted so far close to the same 2 1/2 years. My first one hit out of nowhere, same as this one, but then I recovered relatively well, though never 100% the same I don't think. That was many years ago so I'm afraid now that I'm older I'm less resilient to get better. It's weird because I didn't do anything in particular to come out of it, it just kind of lessened to the point that I realized I felt alot better. I think it's an anxious depression almost. Totally afraid and totally exhausting, and I also lost hope and still do a lot of days. I do not feel like myself either, kind of just existing and looking for ways to feel somewhat normal. I have moments that I feel better but I know it doesn't last long. My evenings are way better than the first part of the day. The morning is absolutely horrible for me for some reason. I just hold out hope that since it happened before and it got better that the same will happen this time, and like I said, I definitely feel better than I did, but it was very, very rough. I will keep you in my prayers. That's pretty much what I've been doing for the past 2 1/2 years, praying like crazy. You will feel better again.

My doctor said he sees this kind of thing and it can take around 2 years to feel better, but mine is always more than that. With me it starts out feeling like some kind of nervous breakdown with the no sleep and losing weight, and then turns into anxious depression where I don't really feel very much. It's horrible. I know what you are going through. Just do the best you can and hang in there until it passes.

 

[Sloth54]

Yes same here. My first time took probably close to 2 1/2 years. This episode, though better than it was 6 months ago, has lasted so far close to the same 2 1/2 years. My first one hit out of nowhere, same as this one, but then I recovered relatively well, though never 100% the same I don't think. That was many years ago so I'm afraid now that I'm older I'm less resilient to get better. It's weird because I didn't do anything in particular to come out of it, it just kind of lessened to the point that I realized I felt alot better. I think it's an anxious depression almost. Totally afraid and totally exhausting, and I also lost hope and still do a lot of days. I do not feel like myself either, kind of just existing and looking for ways to feel somewhat normal. I have moments that I feel better but I know it doesn't last long. My evenings are way better than the first part of the day. The morning is absolutely horrible for me for some reason. I just hold out hope that since it happened before and it got better that the same will happen this time, and like I said, I definitely feel better than I did, but it was very, very rough. I will keep you in my prayers. That's pretty much what I've been doing for the past 2 1/2 years, praying like crazy. You will feel better again.

My doctor said he sees this kind of thing and it can take around 2 years to feel better, but mine is always more than that. With me it starts out feeling like some kind of nervous breakdown with the no sleep and losing weight, and then turns into anxious depression where I don't really feel very much. It's horrible. I know what you are going through. Just do the best you can and hang in there until it passes.

I can completely relate to you! I am most likely way older than you but I have been dealing with this since childhood. Therapy helps a little bit in the moment but eventually all these feelings just come back. I am at the point where I’m going to have to try medication again even though I don’t want to. I don’t know what else to do and it’s depressing. Tired of The racing mind, physical sensations, fogginess, etc. I know that the brain has resilience and that’s what I’m working on. Just feel like I am on a spinning wheel trying to get to a peaceful point in my life. Any suggestions are very appreciated.

 

[suzzeeb]

I can completely relate to you! I am most likely way older than you but I have been dealing with this since childhood. Therapy helps a little bit in the moment but eventually all these feelings just come back. I am at the point where I’m going to have to try medication again even though I don’t want to. I don’t know what else to do and it’s depressing. Tired of The racing mind, physical sensations, fogginess, etc. I know that the brain has resilience and that’s what I’m working on. Just feel like I am on a spinning wheel trying to get to a peaceful point in my life. Any suggestions are very appreciated.

I have had this my whole life also, however, it has gotten worse as I have gotten older. I'm in my 50s now and I could deal with it much better when I was younger, even though I don't remember my life without it. For years now it affects my sleep which is why I think it has felt so much worse. I wish I had advice for you. Not much quality of life really, but you can only do what you can do. There are no good solutions in my opinion. If I am having a good day I try to get outside and walk a little, try to have positive thoughts (which is hard), eat as healthy as possible (I fail there a lot too). Anything you can do to find a little joy and peace. I pray a lot and read inspirational books, enjoy my grandkids as much as possible. I know I will never have the life I would like to have. Not much traveling or even fun which makes me sad as I watch other people enjoying life so fully, but it is what it is I guess.

 

[Lanchparty7]

I am in a pretty bad episode right now. It has been building for awhile but these last few days have been brutal and it is only going to get worse from here I am afraid considering the holidays and winter are some of the darkest times for me. My job sucks and I lack any sort of meaningful support system (other than my once a week therapy session). I also live in a unbelievably depressing place…both my current living situation and the location of the country where I live.

 

[suzzeeb]

I am in a pretty bad episode right now. It has been building for awhile but these last few days have been brutal and it is only going to get worse from here I am afraid considering the holidays and winter are some of the darkest times for me. My job sucks and I lack any sort of meaningful support system (other than my once a week therapy session). I also live in a unbelievably depressing place…both my current living situation and the location of the country where I live.

Ugh I'm so sorry. I struggle with the holidays too and it's dark and dreary where I live too. This time of year is hard for a lot of us I think. Unless you experience it you can't understand how hard it is. You will be in my prayers.

 

[Lanchparty7]

Ugh I'm so sorry. I struggle with the holidays too and it's dark and dreary where I live too. This time of year is hard for a lot of us I think. Unless you experience it you can't understand how hard it is. You will be in my prayers.

Thanks! It is true about people not understanding how hard it is for some of us. I know people who love the holidays and go all out for it and who can’t understand why I don’t much care for them and I believe they are judging me for it. I can tell by certain comments and remarks made to me.

 

[suzzeeb]

Thanks! It is true about people not understanding how hard it is for some of us. I know people who love the holidays and go all out for it and who can’t understand why I don’t much care for them and I believe they are judging me for it. I can tell by certain comments and remarks made to me.

I know me too. So many people are busy every second going to events and parties, etc. I wish I could be like that. We miss out on a lot I think, but I make the most of what little I am able to do. I do decorate my house some and I enjoy that. It makes me feel a little normal at least. Oh well, another week and it will all be over for another year, yay! My 3-year-old grandson was in a little concert thing at their church and I was almost sure I wouldn't feel like going with all the people and I don't sleep that well a lot of the time so I was sad, but I actually made myself go because I didn't want to miss out on that too, and I had a few rough moments but glad I was at least able to be there. Not as exciting as most people's holidays but I'm grateful for little things these days.

 

[2ndtime_around]

How did it go away.? I hate it so much

One day it just went away and I became me again , but in 2021 it came back and its horrible once again

I have had this my whole life also, however, it has gotten worse as I have gotten older. I'm in my 50s now and I could deal with it much better when I was younger, even though I don't remember my life without it. For years now it affects my sleep which is why I think it has felt so much worse. I wish I had advice for you. Not much quality of life really, but you can only do what you can do. There are no good solutions in my opinion. If I am having a good day I try to get outside and walk a little, try to have positive thoughts (which is hard), eat as healthy as possible (I fail there a lot too). Anything you can do to find a little joy and peace. I pray a lot and read inspirational books, enjoy my grandkids as much as possible. I know I will never have the life I would like to have. Not much traveling or even fun which makes me sad as I watch other people enjoying life so fully, but it is what it is I guess.

Its such a shame that we go through this , when it nothing wrong so they say but yet we struggle so bad , we all will get through this

 

[loggiemod]

Seems never-ending doesn't it. I always have an underlying level of anxiety, building now as more travel looms. I get upset by it but my otherhalf gets annoyed with me for not sharing. But what's to share? I can't go around every day saying I feel like ..... Anyway, keep going - if you find anything that helps keep doing it Hope everyone has a better 2023

 

[Jonathan123]

Thanks! It is true about people not understanding how hard it is for some of us. I know people who love the holidays and go all out for it and who can’t understand why I don’t much care for them and I believe they are judging me for it. I can tell by certain comments and remarks made to me.

Never regard yourself as abnormal in some way. Anxiety is not an abnormality but a reaction to fear, which is perfectly normal in humans and other animal species. It is a built in function to guard us from danger. It's when it becomes a liability rather than an asset that it interferes with our life. Let others judge you, if you feel others are. Most people who judge have never been in anxiety so how can they know? Many of us, including me, would not wish to go partying and joining in a social life. Anyway, most so called friendships are very insincere, and they will move away from you if you have anxiety which they can't understand and make no attempt to do so.
Do what YOU want to do. If you are happy in your own way then who is to say it's wrong?