A cry for help.

[bigjetplane6]

Friends...
My HA has been at its worst this past week. I’ve been going through so many scares this past week, so many different symptoms, so many new things on my body i’m finding that weren’t there before, so many Google searches, so many diseases i’m convinced I have because the picture matches what I have, so many red eyes from crying so much. Right now, in my head, I have like 5 different “C” right (the bad word, i don’t like to say). I am actually crying as I am typing this. I have a couple of doctors appointments I have to set up now to see what I have, why I feel the way I do, why do I have this new small lump, why do i have this discolored part of my body I didn’t have before; why do i have this new pain?
I just want to run, and run.
Or I just want to go to sleep and wake up when everything is better.
God please take care of me and take care of my family. Take care of my baby. I need you so much right now God.
I have nobody to talk to about this and nobody understands, not even my husband.
I am at my lowest point. I can’t even breathe.
Help.

 

[Danny1001]

We are here for you what are your fears and symptoms let’s try to challenge these negative thoughts


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[bigjetplane6]

Just reading that made me cry more. Thank you.

 

[Danny1001]

What are your fears it helps to talk


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[suzzeeb]

Oh my gosh I feel terrible for you. I totally understand though how devastating it is to get in the fear cycle. I am in a similar place right now for the last couple weeks. It's like a nightmare that you can't control. No one understands unless they have been through it.

The good news is, it usually runs its course, as uncomfortable as it is, and you get through. I think once you see your doctor and figure out the cause of your symptoms your anxiety will go back down. It's just in the meantime it sucks.

I will be praying for you today.

 

[bigjetplane6]

Oh my gosh I feel terrible for you. I totally understand though how devastating it is to get in the fear cycle. I am in a similar place right now for the last couple weeks. It's like a nightmare that you can't control. No one understands unless they have been through it.

The good news is, it usually runs its course, as uncomfortable as it is, and you get through. I think once you see your doctor and figure out the cause of your symptoms your anxiety will go back down. It's just in the meantime it sucks.

I will be praying for you today.

Thank you, much appreciated.
I just feel so low. I feel so guilty that i’m missing out on a lot of great moments, for example my daughters first year of life, over stupid anxiety. That’s what makes me feel the guiltiest.
But damn, HA is like the devil.

 

[Euonymus]

Thank you, much appreciated.
I just feel so low. I feel so guilty that i’m missing out on a lot of great moments, for example my daughters first year of life, over stupid anxiety. That’s what makes me feel the guiltiest.
But damn, HA is like the devil.

I really understand you on this one. It feels like i am missing out on so many things, many plans ruined. Life is moving while i am stuck.
We'll get through this, and when we are done with it we will be stronger than ever before.

 

[Trunchbee]

Friends...
My HA has been at its worst this past week. I’ve been going through so many scares this past week, so many different symptoms, so many new things on my body i’m finding that weren’t there before, so many Google searches, so many diseases i’m convinced I have because the picture matches what I have, so many red eyes from crying so much. Right now, in my head, I have like 5 different “C” right (the bad word, i don’t like to say). I am actually crying as I am typing this. I have a couple of doctors appointments I have to set up now to see what I have, why I feel the way I do, why do I have this new small lump, why do i have this discolored part of my body I didn’t have before; why do i have this new pain?
I just want to run, and run.
Or I just want to go to sleep and wake up when everything is better.
God please take care of me and take care of my family. Take care of my baby. I need you so much right now God.
I have nobody to talk to about this and nobody understands, not even my husband.
I am at my lowest point. I can’t even breathe.
Help.

God if I know what you’re going through. I pray everyday just for more time . It’s terrible and I’m so sorry that you’re going through it. Try to keep your head up and let this pass

 

[bigjetplane6]

God if I know what you’re going through. I pray everyday just for more time . It’s terrible and I’m so sorry that you’re going through it. Try to keep your head up and let this pass

What do you mean?

 

[bigjetplane6]

I really understand you on this one. It feels like i am missing out on so many things, many plans ruined. Life is moving while i am stuck.
We'll get through this, and when we are done with it we will be stronger than ever before.

Thank you. I hope i’ll get over this. I have so many things i need to go to the doc over. i can’t stop obsessing over it

 

[Trunchbee]

What do you mean?

What do you mean?

The feeling of impending doom. The anxiety. All of it. I hope you get through it!

 

[Jgriffin]

Friends...
My HA has been at its worst this past week. I’ve been going through so many scares this past week, so many different symptoms, so many new things on my body i’m finding that weren’t there before, so many Google searches, so many diseases i’m convinced I have because the picture matches what I have, so many red eyes from crying so much. Right now, in my head, I have like 5 different “C” right (the bad word, i don’t like to say). I am actually crying as I am typing this. I have a couple of doctors appointments I have to set up now to see what I have, why I feel the way I do, why do I have this new small lump, why do i have this discolored part of my body I didn’t have before; why do i have this new pain?
I just want to run, and run.
Or I just want to go to sleep and wake up when everything is better.
God please take care of me and take care of my family. Take care of my baby. I need you so much right now God.
I have nobody to talk to about this and nobody understands, not even my husband.
I am at my lowest point. I can’t even breathe.
Help.

All of us here have been where your at. I may not in this moment but it could hit me next week. Two weeks ago I was spiraling and just needed someone and would read this forum and it would be soothing to my soul. Wouldn't fix my ailments tho. Give God your pain.