Over the past six months I have had so many ups and downs, mostly and I mean mostly downs. I've been on five different antidepressants and four different mood stabilizers. My mornings are absolutely dreadful. I have to take 2mg of Xanax the moment I wake up. On a scale of 1 to 10 my anxiety rarely goes below a 5. Today I had to take Xanax all day to knock me out because the anxiety was so bad. I'm starting to lose hope.