hi. My name is Desiree and I’m 31 years old. I’m new to seeking help from others. The only people I usually talk to about my anxiety is my doctor but I feel she’s not understanding me. I am the mother of an 8 year old, 2 year old and a 3 month old baby boy. I had him and my other children via c section but my last pregnancy came 3 weeks early so although it was planned it was pretty chaotic. Since then I’ve had more severe anxiety than normal. My vision has been blurry and my eye has been twitching and I can’t help but think I have some type of brain tumor....sometimes my back hurts so I believe my kidneys are failing. I work myself up into these attacks and end up crying my eyes out. Every time I see the news or any of those medicine commercials I believe I have the problems and get worked up. Since I’m breastfeeding I can only take about .5mg of lorazepam before bed....so the rest of the day I’m out of my mind. I don’t know what to do. Go to the doctors to check for these tumors and have them brand me as crazy and lock me up? My vision is blurry and I have been looking at my phone a lot lately and since it’s been sunny out I don’t have my inside lights on as often so when I do turn them on the light like make my eyes blurry. I don’t know what to do. I’m in a panic right now. I tried talking to my fiancé about it but he doesn’t help. I tell him I have cancer probably and he just says “I hope not” which makes me believe he believes I have it too....can someone please help me. I don’t know how many more of these episodes I can take.