Anxious about moving

Any move is going to be stressful, but especially under those circumstances. I hope the facility helps you on your journey to find peace. I’ve been dealing with the stress over a move too. In less than two months my parents are leaving for Florida to retire and invited me to come with them, and with all the job opportunities there, a better housing market, and white sandy beaches I would’ve been a fool to pass it up. However as excited as I am to live there all my friends and my support group are here in California. I was really snippy at work today. Some lady honked at me in the parking lot because she was being impatient, had to stop myself from stepping out of the car and ripping her bumper off like the Hulk. But seriously I’ve been a mess all day. The move isn’t even close to happening yet and I’m already upset about it in my own weird way. I am equally as excited about this transition as I am anxious and depressed.

I’m only a little over a month into my recovery and I’m worried leaving to go live in a party state, 15 minutes from the spring break capital of the world, without any friends will cause me to relapse. The move hasn’t even happened yet and I’m honestly thinking about cracking open a beer or sparking a joint. The worst part is I feel like if I express these feelings, that my therapist, sponsors, friends, and family may think this move won’t be good for me and try to convince me to stay here, but I can’t. As much as I hate leaving all my friends behind I really do want to live there. I think as scary as it is, it’ll probably be good for me.

Sometimes the things our anxiety tells us to avoid are the exact things we need. Help is definitely one of those things, anxiety tells us that getting help could mean ridicule or dismissal, that we might be rejected because of how we feel, or that we’re not worth it. Even though I don’t know you I’m glad you’re seeking professional help. I’ve thought about checking into a mental health facility many times, but shame and fear keep me from it. As much as I appreciate the help I receive and encourage others to seek it out as well, I also like to keep my therapy sessions and NA meetings a secret from my parents. I recently opened up to them about the meetings and they were supportive, but they don’t seem to really understand and I don’t expect them too.

You’ll be ok, always remember to reach out whenever you need help and do what’s best for YOU! Not what anxiety tells you to do! Much love and mad respect for the bravery in accepting in help.


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