SUPER ANXIOUS, PLZ READ :(

bin_tenn said:

That's not true, there are lots of benign (and more likely) reasons. I can't remember them off the top of my head, but I've read about things like this before. Yes, I read random crap about things that aren't even relevant to me. Haha. Your doctor wanted to perform a biopsy because it *can* be a number of things, and the treatment depends on the root cause.

Unless your doctor specifically says you should worry, don't worry. They would know if something were glaringly wrong, and they would tell you if they knew you were in harm's way.

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bin_tenn said:

I know how it goes, believe me! I'm just trying to reassure you, because I've been there and now I'm pretty much on the other side of things, for the most part. They often don't do a biopsy right away, unless they find some reason to suspect that it's more likely immediately harmful to you. "Watch and wait" is a common practice. Doctors don't like to do more than is absolutely necessary, because they don't want to waste their time or yours, and they don't want you wasting money. Many issues resolve on their own.

I hope you can relax sooner rather than later. Hang in there, it will get better.

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bin_tenn said:

I know how it goes, believe me! I'm just trying to reassure you, because I've been there and now I'm pretty much on the other side of things, for the most part. They often don't do a biopsy right away, unless they find some reason to suspect that it's more likely immediately harmful to you. "Watch and wait" is a common practice. Doctors don't like to do more than is absolutely necessary, because they don't want to waste their time or yours, and they don't want you wasting money. Many issues resolve on their own.

I hope you can relax sooner rather than later. Hang in there, it will get better.

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Bobnnat said:

Nurse Practitioners deal with minor things, freeing up doctors time for more important matters. NP typically see colds, flu, strains, etc. If the NP was truly concerned, she would have had the doctor look at it, even if it meant you would have to wait for a while.

You’re smack dab in a HA episode. God knows I’ve been there too many times to count, so I know how difficult it is and how fleeting reassurance is, if that’s even possible during an episode. But (at least at this.point in time), I’m not suffering thru a HA scare, so I see clearly and with all my being I know you don’t have VC. Also, think about it..if there was truly a fear in the NPs mind, in addition to having the doc see you, you wouldn’t be given the option of waiting..

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Belizz said:

I actually had quite a while ago itching and burning down there on vulva, and read and got the same results as you on dr.google because I made the mistake of searching.
Back then I made my ex look at it (because I am so scared of checking body changes myself) so they said nothing was visible.
So this sensation of burning, itching especially in night time comes and goes for about 4-5 years but disappears strangely when I focus on some other scares. Around 2 years ago when I had my regular PAP smear, I asked the nurse if they see anything weird there and I told them I had burning and itching. She said she couldn't see anything.
It came back again a while ago and I made my mom check it out on phone and asked if she sees any changes there on skin, she said she didn't see any.
So I left my fear aside like a body sensation that comes and goes when I focus on it. I assume if it was related to something as serious as C. then it wouldn't disappear no matter what. Maybe your color change is just a coincidence with the feelings you had there. And the color is maybe related to something else?
I also try to reassure myself with things like "it is a very rare C." and "I never heard anyone dying of something like that, maybe there are successful treatment", like that. Dunno. Try to calm yourself as much as you can. I know it's extremely hard.

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FlipperK said:

My wife has psoriasis and has “patches” down there because of it. Same thing, different color too. Do you have skin conditions?

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FlipperK said:

My wife has psoriasis and has “patches” down there because of it. Same thing, different color too. Do you have skin conditions?

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bin_tenn said:

That's absolutely typical of anxiety. I understand the feeling entirely. I've gone months feeling "on edge", like I'm going to have a panic attack at any moment.



Since you have a legitimate concern (re: changes in a particular area that seem unwarranted) take care of that first. Once that biopsy is done, and it's not what you think it is, I recommend focusing all that time and energy on combating the root of the problem - anxiety. If possible, you could give therapy a shot. Find a good therapist who is familiar with health anxiety and CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy). If you can't do that, spend time researching CBT. Techniques such as acceptance, mindfulness and meditation are major components of that type of therapy. There are plenty of 100% free resources on YouTube and Google.

While you're trying to cope with things in the meantime, I also highly recommend searching for videos by Eckhart Tolle on YouTube. He has some amazing work related to being "present", living "in the now", and letting these unnecessary and unhelpful worries go. Folks who have a confirmed diagnosis of some terminal illness most likely try to spend the majority of their time living in the moment, rather than worrying about what may very well happen to them. They may not have much time left. Since you do, especially if the biopsy does indeed clear you of malignancy, it's best to use your time enjoying life. You don't want to be 85 and regretting all the years spent convinced that "this year will be my last".

Also, as I tell everyone else, feel free to PM me some time if you need an individual to vent to and talk about how to overcome these things. I'm not the only person here open to PM, but I always like to throw the offer out there, just in case.

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FlipperK said:

I am here.

They are different in color, lighter.

Look, in another post I listed a few things in which I actually have physical growths that turned out to be benign.

I have white growths on my gums, my left tonsil is larger than my right, and I have a growth under neath my skin next to my belly button. All real physical symptoms that turned out to be... nothing. Benign growths or in the case of my tonsil, normal.


There is something there, I get it, it’s hard to shake it because it’s a real, physical, symptom. However, you have to change your mind set now. You have had it biopsied and looked at. If it turns out to be anything other than benign, you have taken the first step to fixing the issue.

Because, what else can you do? You can’t sit around and just hope and wonder what it may be... you have to figure out what it is so you can get a grasp on it.

You have to accept that. Lift up your chin, take a deep breath, and know that you are taking the right steps to solving this problem. You have to be.

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FlipperK said:

Which one are you asking about?

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