Hello guys, hope I do not trigger anyone and can seek help or advice.
I have dealt with anxiety for three years now and it has some good days and some bad days, it was to the point I was going to the hospital everyday. I would go mainly because I have hypertension and afib at 21 which really sucks. But I was able to control myself and get it under wrap, now though I am seriously scared to the bone because I have been having very in depth dejavu or precognition and it hasn't happened for a while but when it did before a feeling of realism never came with it. This is what happens:
I get a job near my girlfriends and I'm working with this guy at the cash registers, I tell him I canr breath and to call 911. He says what and I pass out like a sack if potatoes, when I come to I'm in the ambulance and I'm being told in dying. I get to the highway and call my dad ( which has disowned me recently and told me to die) I tell him what they say and he doesn't believe me. When we get to the hospital my girlfriend is there and shes on the phone with my dad as well as the doctor. They say I dont have long and that he needs to hurry. When he gets there I start to freak out and feel it coming. I began to cry and tell my dad I'm scared and don't want to die anytime soon. He tells me hes sorry and I won't then everything goes black and I'm gone.
Now this has happened before with my birthday and Christmas and other big stressful days. At one point before march like many for two months before my birthday I had dejavu or whatever that if I went to my grandmas I would keel over and die in her den. So everyone came to my little house and sat on the couch and nothing happened.....
Please if anyone experiences this help me understand, I feel alone and scared t bh it makes me cry more then anything. I'm not ready to go and I want to know I'm not going to
I apologize for the typing my phone sucks with auto correct
I have dealt with anxiety for three years now and it has some good days and some bad days, it was to the point I was going to the hospital everyday. I would go mainly because I have hypertension and afib at 21 which really sucks. But I was able to control myself and get it under wrap, now though I am seriously scared to the bone because I have been having very in depth dejavu or precognition and it hasn't happened for a while but when it did before a feeling of realism never came with it. This is what happens:
I get a job near my girlfriends and I'm working with this guy at the cash registers, I tell him I canr breath and to call 911. He says what and I pass out like a sack if potatoes, when I come to I'm in the ambulance and I'm being told in dying. I get to the highway and call my dad ( which has disowned me recently and told me to die) I tell him what they say and he doesn't believe me. When we get to the hospital my girlfriend is there and shes on the phone with my dad as well as the doctor. They say I dont have long and that he needs to hurry. When he gets there I start to freak out and feel it coming. I began to cry and tell my dad I'm scared and don't want to die anytime soon. He tells me hes sorry and I won't then everything goes black and I'm gone.
Now this has happened before with my birthday and Christmas and other big stressful days. At one point before march like many for two months before my birthday I had dejavu or whatever that if I went to my grandmas I would keel over and die in her den. So everyone came to my little house and sat on the couch and nothing happened.....
Please if anyone experiences this help me understand, I feel alone and scared t bh it makes me cry more then anything. I'm not ready to go and I want to know I'm not going to
I apologize for the typing my phone sucks with auto correct
