Life’s Testing Me

Do we start with the whole TV thing. Just asking. Are you sure you didn't hit any other buttons by mistake? I ask this because I have done it myself on an old TV we had downstairs. Thought I was doing one thing, only to see the TV do something odd. Like tune itself in. You had been asleep. You just woke up. If that was me I would be hitting every wrong button. As I would be still half asleep. In your mind this probably didn't happen. You are probably sure beyond all doubt this never happened. But that could be the anxiety telling you this. That it was not a simple mistake, that something weird really did happen all by itself. Now we will stop for a minute. We will ask ourselves do things like this happen all by themselves as a rule? Obvious answer would be ' NO '. I am not saying you are going mad or anything like that. Not even saying that to you it didn't seem like it happened by itself for no reason at all. I am sure that is what your mind thought straight away. I am sure it still thinks that now. But we have to use a little bit of logic with these sort of things. Certain things just don't happen by themselves. The toilet doesn't flush by itself. The hall door doesn't just open by itself. We look for reasons. Hitting a wrong button by mistake would be reason enough for me. Can be done when a person only wakes up. Probably easier to do that than a lot of other things. It is just a suggestion. Based on the fact that things don't just happen for no reason at all.

You Tube. I love that site. Spend a lot of my day on it. You know what happens every once in a while? That option to play the next video, after the one I am watching turns itself on. It is up in the right hand corner. If on it turns blue. I have always wondered why this happens. Do You Tube make it happen? Because I always like it switched off. Just letting you know that it does happen. So when one video ends it will play another video. Not sure what you use when on You Tube. I find with my laptop computer it can make a clicking sound and a new video will begin. As if I had clicked on the other video. Granted the content of the video that came on was not nice. It frightened you. Some people can watch those sort of videos. Other people can't watch them. It was a big trigger for you. Maybe have a look at the safety options on You Tube. Restricted mode is down the bottom of the home page. Maybe turn it on. So only certain videos can be watched. Just an idea for you.


I hope you are feeling better when you are reading this. What you went through early in the morning was a bad trigger for you. A few hours would have passed at this stage. Wishing you all the best. Always here to listen and help out if I can.