chickentender
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My relationship is in the toilet and my anxiety is higher from a bad situation. When I do have a health fear, my partner screams at me or mocks me. The mistreatment is always only verbal, but it's not changing- it gets better for a bit and then worse again. I have been in my relationship for many years and live with my partner.
I have reached out to my family to talk through a plan if I choose to leave. They didn't approve of me moving in with my partner and they also abused me when I was a child. They tell me that I got myself into this mess, I have to get myself back out whatever it means, they can't help me,.
I don't have other people to help me. My partner has started going to therapy, we have been in couples therapy on and off for years also. Right now, I feel I am approaching the end of being able to deal with this though.
I have PTSD from an accident that sparked my health anxiety and depression. I do not drive as a result of my PTSD. I have to move back to where I came from to survive without driving, but I can't afford it. I have worked for myself for years and would have to find an outside job to support myself and I don't know if I could make rents for even a room where I would be going. I don't know if I am able to hold a job down very well with my PTSD as I haven't worked for anyone else for years.
My cat is the one thing that gets me through all of this and if I left, there is no way I can leave him. He has helped me in my battle with my mental health struggles so much and I love him. He is the one being in my life who has ever given me unconditional love and I care about him so much.
My health anxiety is spiking tonight (worrying I am going to die of an allergic reaction as my scalp is itching like crazy either from stress or a shampoo I used and I keep sneezing) as I look over rooms for rent and try to figure out how I'm going to work this if I leave as I have no one my life who can help me get on my feet. I'm also worrying about what would be best for my cat and what is even possible at all. I just need to sleep and I can't. Only my therapist and one close friend knows and my parents since I went to them for help. It's hard to keep this all inside...thanks if you read this.
I have reached out to my family to talk through a plan if I choose to leave. They didn't approve of me moving in with my partner and they also abused me when I was a child. They tell me that I got myself into this mess, I have to get myself back out whatever it means, they can't help me,.
I don't have other people to help me. My partner has started going to therapy, we have been in couples therapy on and off for years also. Right now, I feel I am approaching the end of being able to deal with this though.
I have PTSD from an accident that sparked my health anxiety and depression. I do not drive as a result of my PTSD. I have to move back to where I came from to survive without driving, but I can't afford it. I have worked for myself for years and would have to find an outside job to support myself and I don't know if I could make rents for even a room where I would be going. I don't know if I am able to hold a job down very well with my PTSD as I haven't worked for anyone else for years.
My cat is the one thing that gets me through all of this and if I left, there is no way I can leave him. He has helped me in my battle with my mental health struggles so much and I love him. He is the one being in my life who has ever given me unconditional love and I care about him so much.
My health anxiety is spiking tonight (worrying I am going to die of an allergic reaction as my scalp is itching like crazy either from stress or a shampoo I used and I keep sneezing) as I look over rooms for rent and try to figure out how I'm going to work this if I leave as I have no one my life who can help me get on my feet. I'm also worrying about what would be best for my cat and what is even possible at all. I just need to sleep and I can't. Only my therapist and one close friend knows and my parents since I went to them for help. It's hard to keep this all inside...thanks if you read this.
