This is a great idea. I hope it helps you to understand yourself better. Try not to think about when your mood will lower. Copy Bambam and live in the present. Next week, if you are feeling horrible, you know I am here for you.
Try not to tell yourself it is going to get worse. I know that you are going by experience but don't have it in your mind because that can bring it on. Look at Bambam, copy him and live in the present.
Do you notice that when you put your mind to something else, you feel a little better?
I see how you have been getting steadily worse. It's good to relax if you can. Watching a teary movie is good if you can release your pent-up emotions.
Here is the thing though. I knew that I would be like this and that' why even when I feel on top of the world ....I proceed with caution because I know that soon ...it will be over and things will be sad,lonely ,and a living hell once again.
Oh yeah definitely, i think it has alot to do with waking up that early. I hate that shift and I've told my boss that but, she doesn't care. At the end of the day.. I am freaking exausted. Ugh. I don'the want it no more.
Catering is a taxing job to do. I know because I worked 30 years in the catering industry. Can you try to change your shifts? You have a heart condition and those working hours won't help it at all. Your doctor will tell you that. Can you try to change your hours to a later shift? Would your doctor give you a note to back you up at work? You would also give a better performance at work if you were able to sleep normal hours. Your heart condition doesn't allow for you to do night shifts and part night shifts. Please, please try to change it?