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Concernedgal said:

As you guys already know ...I suffer from a fear of being a passenger in a car. I can stand it for a short period of time or shall i say a certain distance. ..anyways.... yesterday I took a chance and went that extra distance. At first. ..I had a pretty bad panic attack when I left my (safety zone). ..it was pretty epic. It had everything the hyperventilating the tingling in my extremities the palpitations. ...etc...it was a beauty. But, I kept going despite my brain reacting so negatively because I knew that each and everytime I chickened out... the more useless and depressed I feel so I went on despite my instincts not to. I made it to the location and i found that I kinda had fun . I went thrift shopping, grocery shopping and even shopped at the dollar tree if anyone knows what the place is. ...everything is a dollar.lol. Did I feel anxiety while being out ? Sure I did. Did I have a couple of mini freak outs while out? I most certainly did but, it wasn't as bad as my brain made me think it would be. This was my first step to living a semi normal life. Now I feel a little less depressed. I can trust travel just a little more. I'm not there yet...not by a long shot but, I feel confident that just maybe 1 day ...I can be better. Maybe???

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Concernedgal said:

As you guys already know ...I suffer from a fear of being a passenger in a car. I can stand it for a short period of time or shall i say a certain distance. ..anyways.... yesterday I took a chance and went that extra distance. At first. ..I had a pretty bad panic attack when I left my (safety zone). ..it was pretty epic. It had everything the hyperventilating the tingling in my extremities the palpitations. ...etc...it was a beauty. But, I kept going despite my brain reacting so negatively because I knew that each and everytime I chickened out... the more useless and depressed I feel so I went on despite my instincts not to. I made it to the location and i found that I kinda had fun . I went thrift shopping, grocery shopping and even shopped at the dollar tree if anyone knows what the place is. ...everything is a dollar.lol. Did I feel anxiety while being out ? Sure I did. Did I have a couple of mini freak outs while out? I most certainly did but, it wasn't as bad as my brain made me think it would be. This was my first step to living a semi normal life. Now I feel a little less depressed. I can trust travel just a little more. I'm not there yet...not by a long shot but, I feel confident that just maybe 1 day ...I can be better. Maybe???

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Concernedgal said:

Thank you guys. I never would have even considered facing this of it weren't for you guys and this forum. It means the world to me that a place like this is here . It's a long ,long way to go until I get there.

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Concernedgal said:

I'm going to give it another go tomorrow.

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Concernedgal said:

No. I chickened out. I promised my husband that we would go to town on valentine's day. I promised we would go to any restaurant he wanted. That made him smile so I guess that obligated me. Lol. I will give it another go but, despite my last experience. ..my brain is still playing tricks on me. Telling me lies like ...I am going to have another panic attack or something awful will happen . And here' the real kicker ..I will not be but maybe 3miles away from the nearest er if anything happens in town. That's' what got me through it last time. That and thinking get about all you guys and your past advice and love and support.

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Concernedgal said:

I did it again. So happy. I went on a date with my hubby and we had a good time. I feel a little bit closer to Recovery and a little bit close to a normal life. This makes me happy. There''s no stopping me now.

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