Crazy brain

Anxiety riddled brains are insane. I went hunting yesterday (Saturday) I woke up with a mildly sore back. Probably due to me stapling plastic around our windows for winter. (Old single pane windows). Mild back soreness and feeling ever so slightly sick, like mildest cold ever sick. And we ended up talking about rabies. And now I’m terrified I have it. Either from somehow getting saliva from and infected deer in my mouth (I chew tobacco so hand in mouth often) or maybe from pheasant hunting last month. Maybe a bat in the hotel I stayed at while pheasant hunting. The worst part is I realize how completely irrational this is. But here I am after trying to go to bed an hour ago. No appetite, no desire to drink anything, facial tingling on and off all lasting for days. I had a lack of thirst and appetite before rabies ever crossed my mind. And the worst part is I have insane anxiety right now which is probably have over some other random thing but apparently rabies is the flavor of the month. Those symptoms come and go so that’s a positive. And even being aware of how irrational that fear is I cannot shut my brain off or calm down. Even with rabies incidents being around 2 per year in the US, I can’t shake the chance I have it. However small. I hate this **** so much.

Anyone?

The worry is hard to get past. My right arm and side of my face is tingling, my vision is blurry, I’m salivating a lot. And just making a lot of jerky arm movements like they don’t wanna work right :/ anxiety isn’t crazy high

I just never know what’s anxiety and what’s actual symptoms. Am I just imagining or forcing myself to feel rabies symptoms? Does that happen? I know anxiety has its own symptoms but can it cause more?

Sweet T said:

I hear you. It’s tough when you can’t trust your own judgements.

But rabies is not at all likely.

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I know :/ just wish I could Convince my anxiety and subconscious of that rationality

Sweet T said:

You can! Maybe the bigger question is why you would take so much time and energy on something that isn’t real. Maybe you are avoiding something else?

That was the case for me. My worrying was a distraction from my failing marriage. Once my therapist pointed it out, it was kind of obvious.

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100% not the case for me unfortunately. If anything it might be a symptom of the stress I put on myself and poor self image, but I haven’t worked that out in therapy yet