After I had my major anxiety attack/breakdown I feel like my whole world has changed. It's like I am learning to live in a whole new way. At times it feels ok and at other times I feel very depressed. I used to love to play video games for example and now it's very hard for me to sit down and enjoy one at all. I still feel alot better than I did on the 20th but sometimes I get scared that I'm going crazy because my perception of life has changed so much. I do have my moments of relief but also sometimes out of the blue I feel anxious for no reason and it persists for long periods of time.
I saw a psychiatrist and she said that I have panic disorder. It really bummed me out to hear that diagnosis. I have had an easy life with no health or mental problems up to this point for which I feel blessed but now I feel like I am ill equipped to handle these changes. Also the psychiatrist told me that I would have this till I was 45 and that it would get worse. This really triggered me when I was already feeling very down. It was like she was trying to knock me down a peg or two. And also it's so hard to find a therapist that meshes with you. But I found one that I think might be a good fit for me but she can't see me until the 26th.
On top of that my girlfriend and I have a trip planned next week to go see my parents and man I'm really wondering if we should go because I am still so sensitive and they stress me out at times. But I want to get out of our apartment because I think since I had the attack here in the apartment it has started to trigger me to a certain extent. So I guess I'm starting to get the opposite of agoraphobia. Because now I try to be out of the house as much as possible and when I finally have to go home it makes me sad and scared a little.
Just wanted to vent. Thanks for reading. I hope that anyone feeling uncomfortable from anxiety or anything can feel some relief tonight!
I saw a psychiatrist and she said that I have panic disorder. It really bummed me out to hear that diagnosis. I have had an easy life with no health or mental problems up to this point for which I feel blessed but now I feel like I am ill equipped to handle these changes. Also the psychiatrist told me that I would have this till I was 45 and that it would get worse. This really triggered me when I was already feeling very down. It was like she was trying to knock me down a peg or two. And also it's so hard to find a therapist that meshes with you. But I found one that I think might be a good fit for me but she can't see me until the 26th.
On top of that my girlfriend and I have a trip planned next week to go see my parents and man I'm really wondering if we should go because I am still so sensitive and they stress me out at times. But I want to get out of our apartment because I think since I had the attack here in the apartment it has started to trigger me to a certain extent. So I guess I'm starting to get the opposite of agoraphobia. Because now I try to be out of the house as much as possible and when I finally have to go home it makes me sad and scared a little.
Just wanted to vent. Thanks for reading. I hope that anyone feeling uncomfortable from anxiety or anything can feel some relief tonight!