Quarantine Anxiety Tonight

I'm in NY and have been inside out of an abundance of caution since late February/early March.
Most of my friends and loved ones say that one day this will be in the past. History suggests it will end at some point. But, sometimes, it seems hopeless.
Of my loved ones who have been sick, thankfully one is recovered and the rest are recovering, not in the hospital, but they have been sick with it for some time and are obviously afraid and though I wouldn't tell them that I am also afraid for them, I am.
I have been having nightmares about being around people in close proximity when quarantine ends.
My health anxiety spiked tonight.
I keep beating myself up over every little thing.
I am trying not to think of the diagnostic testing I was getting when this all started that I can't complete now for who knows how long.
My anxiety today has me feeling like I can't breathe (and no, I haven't had and don't have corona virus, knock on wood).
I'm feeling a combination of blank, anxious, thankful for what I have and at the same time trying to keep hope alive, but tonight, my health anxiety is higher than normal and I'm trying to bring it back down under control.

anxiousinamerica said:

I don't know if this is of any help, but sometimes I've found you just gotta ride it out. I've had moments where everything seems hopeless, and I don't know how much more I can take (and I will probably have many more of them), but eventually my mind just gets bored and moves on. I just have to tell myself that this too will pass, and usually it does.

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Thank you, this does help and the panic did pass. So tired today after waking up from a panic attack at one point and not sleeping much.

Cuchculan said:

These people with the virus will be checked a few times. Few tests done. To see are there any traces of the virus still in their body. As hospitals are packed, a few are allowed home to recover there. But they will be tested again. Just to make sure the virus has left their body. Before they are given the all clear to leave their homes. Pointless allowing them back out if they can still infect others. Until they get the all clear they will be kept away from everybody.

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Actually, they have the all clear to go out and food shop, etc if they meet 3 milestones in their recovery without testing. My fear is that society in general is going to be on the intense lockdown that we have in NY indefinitely if they can't come up with a prevention or effective treatment quickly. Every day we learn something new about this disease, which is great because it's progress. On the other hand, it drives home how little we actually know when the findings disprove the things we held as fact prior.

I was supposed to have something biopsied and this all hit the fan as I was a week out from that procedure, so it's nerve wracking for me to know I can't do that now. It's "elective" apparently. It always increases my anxiety to know there are obstacles to me receiving care. I also have panic attacks when we have snow storms and the roads aren't cleared yet for this reason :/