Hey guys. I am in a really bad place 
I guess a lot of us are.
I have been isolating and only going on car rides with my mom. She buys groceries once a week and now as cases began growing she buys at this nearly empty store and not supermarkets. She has to buy for grandma too. We get most of our stuff delivered. I went to the park once (kept distance) and once to the hospital for an unrelated emergency. My mom goes to jog because she is a recovering alcoholic but she keeps 20-30 ft from everyone when she does (and she goes while everyone is grocery shopping so barely any people on the track)
We wipe everything that comes in the house with either soap or 70% alcohol depending on the product and we isolate them for days on the balcony. I don't know what more, I was trying to be so careful but I am still scared I caught it somehow.
I felt slight head pressure one day, started pacing all day I mean good 10-12 hours of walking around the small apartment without sitting. Didn't eat anything. I haven't eaten properly in 3 weeks, barely one meal a day. I lost 11 pounds. Next day felt tired and fatigued and convinced myself is covid-19. I get panic attacks when I try to sleep. Weird and scary dreams and waking up every 3 hours or so sweating in panic. Took my temp. It went up to 98.4 some days but then down to like 97-98 as normal. I just feel tired and exhausted. I felt chest tightness the other night. I keep burping and I read its because of hyperventilation. I am not myself I don't recognize myself in the mirror anymore. I just feel so tired. Had few huge panic attacks the past two days. I feel this weight in my body I can't localize or explain. Like my body just hurts like my whole soul hurts.
I don't know if this is covid-19 or my hunger, mild dehydration for weeks and anxiety taking a toll on my body. Few hours ago I felt like I can't breathe and my chest hurt and I thought I will faint or die. I don't know what anymore...don't know how long I can fight. I just want some support...
I guess a lot of us are.I have been isolating and only going on car rides with my mom. She buys groceries once a week and now as cases began growing she buys at this nearly empty store and not supermarkets. She has to buy for grandma too. We get most of our stuff delivered. I went to the park once (kept distance) and once to the hospital for an unrelated emergency. My mom goes to jog because she is a recovering alcoholic but she keeps 20-30 ft from everyone when she does (and she goes while everyone is grocery shopping so barely any people on the track)
We wipe everything that comes in the house with either soap or 70% alcohol depending on the product and we isolate them for days on the balcony. I don't know what more, I was trying to be so careful but I am still scared I caught it somehow.
I felt slight head pressure one day, started pacing all day I mean good 10-12 hours of walking around the small apartment without sitting. Didn't eat anything. I haven't eaten properly in 3 weeks, barely one meal a day. I lost 11 pounds. Next day felt tired and fatigued and convinced myself is covid-19. I get panic attacks when I try to sleep. Weird and scary dreams and waking up every 3 hours or so sweating in panic. Took my temp. It went up to 98.4 some days but then down to like 97-98 as normal. I just feel tired and exhausted. I felt chest tightness the other night. I keep burping and I read its because of hyperventilation. I am not myself I don't recognize myself in the mirror anymore. I just feel so tired. Had few huge panic attacks the past two days. I feel this weight in my body I can't localize or explain. Like my body just hurts like my whole soul hurts.
I don't know if this is covid-19 or my hunger, mild dehydration for weeks and anxiety taking a toll on my body. Few hours ago I felt like I can't breathe and my chest hurt and I thought I will faint or die. I don't know what anymore...don't know how long I can fight. I just want some support...