Brain eating ameoba fears I intensifying..

I know the statistics..I know the incredibly small chance that I could have it. I know all statistics say I shouldn't. And yet.. here I am. Worrying so much about it.
I went swimming for the first time this summer on the 4th of July. I didn't go underwater. I don't even think my face got wet. That's how paranoid I was. But my fear goes to ridiculous places. Like since my hands were in the water, I shouldn't touch my nose or pick at it. The water could still have the ameoba, starting to wiggle up into my nose. Even when I'm brushing my teeth and gurgling with water. I try to make sure its as far away from my nose as possible. Yet I think it's festering. These little aches must be an ameoba eating my brain. It's not like its rare. And with it being summer and going to summer camp soon, I'm more worried than ever.
That and I saw a story. The girl had no reason to have a brain eating ameoba. And yet she did and died from it. I don't look that stuff up anymore. But when so did, I remember. Not to even mention the survival rate.
Anywho. Just needed to vent. Now I'm having some side hip pain I'm overanalyzing and.. all that. I feel the ache when I walk and now its terrifying me.
Here I am with even more worrying. I spray this stuff on my face. This water and glycerin mix. I'm afraid the water is tainted and contains an ameoba. I also put some Vaseline in the opening of my nose because it was sore there, and I'm afraid of anything getting up my nose. Along with my dizziness I've been having, a symptom of the ameoba and it's very quick to take you outm

SusieQ said:

I keep seeing your post and they all have a story you read or a news clip you watched. When we have high anxiety it's best to stay away from things that trigger us. While we can't run from our fears we can help feed them.

I'm an old member of anxiety central as well.

You don't need to worry about what you are fearing in this post. Since your anxiety moves from one irrational thing to another, have you looked into help for the anxiety? Are you currently in therapy?

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Yes, I am. Though everyone would assume that I'm not getting help. I haven't been to therapy in a while, but I am attending still. And I'm taking medication.

SusieQ said:

Do you use the tools you learned in therapy when these irrational fears creep in? I know for me sometimes it's hard when your in the thick of anxiety attack/thoughts. But try to use what you were taught and please stop reading the health stories and the news until you can not get anxious about it.

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I don't intentionally look them up or try to worry myself. It's in my everyday life. I go in Instagram, snapchat. And its just there.