Subliminal messages.. making me worry.

Was gonna sew today. Craft. Do some art. And get my mind off my anxiety. But its back with a vengeance. Nothing of which a 15 year old girl should be worrying about.. realistically.

My family is Christian and my auntie said something. She said "my body is feeling weird, and it seems like the end is coming."
My anxiety started when I was very young with an end of the world fear. And now it's back. But more matured. Death. That's automatically what I thought when that was said. Death of me or someone else, death of us all. Bad things.. nothing good in the slightest. My mom was angry at her for saying so. They know how sensitive my anxiety is, but forget sometimes. And of course I'm over thinking. I'm thinking
"Oh, I'm not eating as much as I usually do. That must mean I'm gonna die soon"
"I don't do the best on my teeth, do I have a secret tooth infection that will travel to my head and kill me?"
"Do I have some super rare cancer, because my muscles feel tense all the time"
"This small cut I have is infected, and then sepsis"
"Some rare respiratory issue will make me drop"
"The doctors missed something, and somethings going to happen to me"
It's.. so terrible. I'm keeping it in from my family because. I don't know. It's just so terrible to think about. Especially when I'm thinking its me or my family.or what she's saying is true. And I'm worried because of women's intuition. I had an intuition once at this place. The place looked sketchy when I came in with my friend. Next thing you know, someone pulled out a gun and then police came within the hour. Everyone escorted out.
I'm.. so scared and don't know what to think. I'm gonna try and get my mind off it. Craft. Do some arts. But it's terrible.

Cuchculan said:

I am sure you must read the bible. Does it not tell us that nobody knows the exact time when the world will end? Thus anybody who claims the world is ending is just saying it. It means nothing at all. How many people have claimed the World was ending over the years? They even gave us exact dates. Here we still are. I don't know what bible they were all reading. It was a different one that we read in school all those years ago. Could your aunt have been talking about herself? The end is coming for her with how she was feeling. Not the end of the World.

Death happens. I won't pretend it doesn't. But for every death there is a good reason. You have listed out a few things. Things that can be checked out. You are second guessing the doctors who found nothing with you at all. They are the experts. We depend on them. No need to second guess them. There is only so many tests they can do on you. Accept that you are fine. Accept the World is not ending. Accept that you are not dying. Read your bible even. Find comfort in its words. Let your God protect you. Trust in Him. That He won't let any harm come to you.

Use your crafts. Make something nice. Maybe even post a picture of it when you are finished. Show your work off. Let those bad thoughts slip away and be replaced with good thoughts. Happy thoughts. You have your life ahead of you. I am sure it will be a good and full life. But you have to believe in this too. Believe in a plan that your God has for you. One that is full of life.

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Thanks so much. Sometimes I really need to hear stuff like that that stops me from thinking so irrationally. Even now. I'm feeling kinda breathless. Like my nose isn't getting enough air. But I remember all the tests I've had. Everything. And then I'm okay.