New here and struggling.

BT86 said:

A few years back I was diagnosed with GAD and OCD, mild ocd at that. However despite my life being in order, healthy marriage, loving family, all the things anyone could want or need, I had a lot of anxiety, nervous all the time. Once the physical symptoms started to appear is when I was diagnosed. Started SSRI and they helped little if at all. All of this came to a head right before my baby boy was born. Fast forward a few years and now I’m a few months away from our second being born. Except this time things are a bit different. Although having a very good grip on anxiety and my ocd through lots of therapy and the support of my amazing wife, I’m back but with some major health anxiety. Out of no where a few weeks ago I started feeling randomly neasueated, then it would go away. It was very strange to me. I’m a very healthy, fit and happy man, this wasn’t normal. Then a few days later after a very spicy meal I woke up with very bad stomach pain. Lots of burning in the upper abdominal and nausea was pretty constant. Finally a few days of this had passed following a break from work and I went to the ER. I needed to know what the heck was happening. They did blood work, all cleared up and they told me maybe it was some acid reflux and it’s also really inflaming my stomach lining. They peracribed me and sent me on my way. Three days later I was back, insisting something sinister was taking place. So they did more bloodwork, came back clear, very very very slight increase in a white blood cell but enough so that three doctors said it concludes nothing and to think nothing of it. I asked for an imaging scan so they did a cat scan to look for anything abnormal. All cleared on that as well. Well friends, it’s been about 9-10 days and I’m still very concerned. The diarrhea is long gone, the nausea is very intermittent, somedays none, sometimes it’s more apparent. My appetite is back but I’m always nervous to eat. I’m convinced it’s some rare dissorder and I’m gonna receive terrible news when I get my endoscopy done in a few weeks. Even though I’ve had the ct, bloodwork and had three doctors tell me to keep taking the for a month and relax and give it time to mitigate some of the agitation to my gut lining I’m still so scared. The anxiety is way up. Deep down I know I should trust my doctor, it seems he’s only having the GI go look because I’m insisting. He said I firmly believe youll be near 100% by the time we’re ready for the procedure. Anyhow, my symptoms are frequent burping, although no foods coming up or acid. I especially burp when I wake up, then it subsided. Sometimes a lump in my throat which I’ve never had, almost like my esophagus and throat are sore, sort of. And stomach gurgling. Long as I avoid coffee, which is my passion and art form of life, I’m a coffee and espresso junkie with dozens of related toys, grinders, espresso machines etc, and spicy food. Seem to be my only triggers, which never were before! Maybe I caught a bad virus early on and it all got exasperated?! Maybe gastritis, maybe an ulcer, maybe it’s lethal... I can deal with the former because we can treat it, especially with the I’m on which takes a few weeks to heal some of those ailments. But anywho, I’m very worried, lots of panic in the night because of stomach discomfort and bubble guts. I just don’t get what’s happening, one day I was a healthy 32 year old married dad and the next I’m hypochondria times a billion all day. Any help, can anyone relate? Is this anxiety rational or probably not??

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