MasterRoshi
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I have been living with depression for so long that I associate certain habits with depression, such as staying in bed, sleeping too long etc...
Over the past 5 months I’ve been doing loads of work to help my depression and it has help a lot! I haven’t had a suicidal thought in about 3 months.
So, this morning I engaged in some of those activities which I used to associate with darkness. I stayed in bed, I slept in, I watched YouTube in bed, I didn’t immediately do my healthy morning routine and haven’t yet done t at all, it’s 11:30am and I’m just now getting out of bed to start the day. I ignored my friends text inviting me to breakfast with his friends (I don’t know them and I’m still recovering from a week of social anxiety st work).
Now, normally all of these actions would be a telltale sign of me being depressed. But I don’t feel bad. I still feel generally ok, balanced and mostly happy. I would say a 5/10 to possibly a 6/10 on the happiness scale.
My fear of course is that these actions lead to depression. Or that I actually am depressed and just don’t know it.
But overall I’m feeling ok. I feel like I needed a break. And that doing these once negative actions is a way for me to challenge my black and white thinking.
Do any of you have advice or thoughts about this and your approach to engaging in behavior that once was a sign of depression?
Over the past 5 months I’ve been doing loads of work to help my depression and it has help a lot! I haven’t had a suicidal thought in about 3 months.
So, this morning I engaged in some of those activities which I used to associate with darkness. I stayed in bed, I slept in, I watched YouTube in bed, I didn’t immediately do my healthy morning routine and haven’t yet done t at all, it’s 11:30am and I’m just now getting out of bed to start the day. I ignored my friends text inviting me to breakfast with his friends (I don’t know them and I’m still recovering from a week of social anxiety st work).
Now, normally all of these actions would be a telltale sign of me being depressed. But I don’t feel bad. I still feel generally ok, balanced and mostly happy. I would say a 5/10 to possibly a 6/10 on the happiness scale.
My fear of course is that these actions lead to depression. Or that I actually am depressed and just don’t know it.
But overall I’m feeling ok. I feel like I needed a break. And that doing these once negative actions is a way for me to challenge my black and white thinking.
Do any of you have advice or thoughts about this and your approach to engaging in behavior that once was a sign of depression?