I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I'm 20 years old, and going absolutely nowhere.
I've always been really shy, and was picked on a lot, but I used to be an overachiever, a great artist and I really knew I was going somewhere. Then when I went into high school, everything went to hell. Now I can't seem to do anything right.
I can't seem to find a job, every time I finally work up the courage to make a call or hand in a resume and application, or even if I make it to the interview and think I did good, I never get hired. I was about to start college, then my parents told me they weren't going to pay for it, I had to do it myself, but I have no job or anything, so I had to give up on that. They both don't like what I want to do, I want to go into game design, and all they ever tell me is that I will most likely fail, or never find a job and waste those years in college.
My friends don't seem to care, I used to walk over to their houses, or call them, but they never made any effort in return. They never ask me to come along when they go out or anything.
When I was a senior in high school, I had an art show, my dad basically said he didn't like my art, that really hurt me, so I haven't drawn since then, and I've completely wasted my talent.
My doctor has diagnosed me with depression and social anxiety himself, yet refuses to put me on any medication. He wants me to learn to deal with it on my own, but with things as they are now, it's just making it worse.
Anyways, sorry for writing so much, I doubt anyone could really help me, it just felt good to get that all out I suppose. Thanks for reading.
I've always been really shy, and was picked on a lot, but I used to be an overachiever, a great artist and I really knew I was going somewhere. Then when I went into high school, everything went to hell. Now I can't seem to do anything right.
I can't seem to find a job, every time I finally work up the courage to make a call or hand in a resume and application, or even if I make it to the interview and think I did good, I never get hired. I was about to start college, then my parents told me they weren't going to pay for it, I had to do it myself, but I have no job or anything, so I had to give up on that. They both don't like what I want to do, I want to go into game design, and all they ever tell me is that I will most likely fail, or never find a job and waste those years in college.
My friends don't seem to care, I used to walk over to their houses, or call them, but they never made any effort in return. They never ask me to come along when they go out or anything.
When I was a senior in high school, I had an art show, my dad basically said he didn't like my art, that really hurt me, so I haven't drawn since then, and I've completely wasted my talent.
My doctor has diagnosed me with depression and social anxiety himself, yet refuses to put me on any medication. He wants me to learn to deal with it on my own, but with things as they are now, it's just making it worse.
Anyways, sorry for writing so much, I doubt anyone could really help me, it just felt good to get that all out I suppose. Thanks for reading.
