I'm Away For A Few Days.

janemariesayed said:

To start with I was really anxious. I knew very few people going and those ones I did know I've only met a few times. But it was lovely and I had a really great time. It enabled me to get closer to my family. Even though I was anxious as hell, everyone was really friendly and they soon put my mind to rest a bit.

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janemariesayed said:

The PTSD brain fog set in when someone was asking me about the short stories I had written. I wrote them but my mind went blank. I hate the fact that my mind goes blank when someone asks me a question because it makes me look stupid. It's not my fault though but I feel that people don't understand how much a traumatic life can affect someone.

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janemariesayed said:

I went through some problems when I was trying to get back to the UK from Egypt. They were going through the Arab uprising over there and it was stressful getting out. I was run off the street like you see happening nowadays and left for dead. I had a very traumatic few years and it's the trauma that sets off PTSD. I also had PTSD when I was a child and get CPTSD as well. That is Complex PTSD. That is from childhood. So I get flashbacks that come from childhood and flashbacks from stressful times in later life. The flashes of memories come in a flash of a second and they can be gone, or they can carry on for a while. It's a bit like you've been hit with an emotional bullet. They make you breathless and throw you into a panic attack. It's got to the stage where I'm scared of any memory resurfacing - good or bad.

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